serenity | knj

XVIII

I fell into a state of panic, not knowing what to do. Without thinking too much about it, I got up and got myself ready. I changed into something that looked a bit more pleasing and put a bit of make-up on. There was no reason for wanting to look good in Seokjin's eyes but I wanted to leave a better impression of myself than last time.

I grabbed my bag and left my room. Jungkook's eyes met mine and I looked back at him in shock, not knowing what to say.

"Are you leaving?", he said calmly.

I looked down on myself and closed my eyes for a second.

"I'm meeting with Yun." I said and continued walking to the door to put my shoes on.

I felt Jungkook following me and it made me panic even more.

"What's wrong?"

I looked up at his face, his pouting lips and big eyes. I once felt the most comfortable when looking at him but now all I wanted to do is leave.

"Nothing." I shut the door behind me without looking back and ran the stairs down.

The sky was cloudy and the wind felt cold on my skin. While walking through the streets, I clung my arms around myself to feel a bit secure. I shut myself from everything that was happening around me and concentrated on my steps on the concrete.

Eventually, I made it to the café where I was supposed to meet Seokjin and entered it. After looking around a bit I ordered a cappuccino and sat down at one of the tables. I nervously played with my fingers, still trying to sort my own thoughts somehow. While I was doing so, I looked outside of the window I was sitting next to and watched the cars and people that were going by.

"Here's your cappuccino."

I flinched and looked at the waiter who looked back at me confused and then left. When I wrapped my cold fingers around the mug I felt them warming up.

"Hey, Jandi."

I looked up to see Seokjin's calming smile as he sat down, wearing a suit that made him look even more handsome.

"Sorry, I'm late."

"No, I just got here."

Seokjin smiled again, making me feel warm and safe. The waiter came back to our table to get Seokjin's order and as he left again, Seokjin bent over a bit and looked into my eyes deeply. I could smell his perfume and felt my face getting warm.

"You wanted to talk?"

I gulped and looked down to my mug.

"Yes."