serenity | knj

XXII

I woke up later that day in Jungkook's bed. The sun was gone already and all I could hear was his calm breathing and his heartbeat. I freed myself from the tight hug he held me in and slowly got out of the bed. My eyes were still swollen from all the crying earlier, so I had a hard time finding my way out of the dark room. Carefully, I closed the door behind me and looked around in the kitchen, to find my phone. As I reached out for it, I remembered how Namjoon gave me his number. I wasn't so sure if it really happened, so I scrolled through my contacts to find his name. "Joon" A deep sigh escaped my lips, and I sat down, resting my head on my hand. It was so hard fighting the urge to write him.

"Then let's go on a date."

"Fuck...", I whispered, shaking my head. I just confessed my feelings to my best friend, I couldn't go on a date with him. After staring at his name a few more minutes, I decided to write him.

[me 6:23 pm]: hi

As I pushed on the send button, I immediately regretted it. I can't do this behind Jungkook's back, it's just unfair.

[joon 6:25 pm]: jandi! ready for our date?

I squeezed my eyes together, not believing what I just read.

[me 6:26 pm]: no? what do you mean?

[joon 6:28 pm]: get ready then, i'm picking you up in an hour xx

[me 6:30 pm]: no?????

[me 6:32 pm]: namjoon? i'm not going on a date with you!!

[joon 6:34 pm]: see you later princess :)

I buried my face into my hands. It was so clear, that writing him would be a mistake. But something about him made me lose all sense of reality. I heard the door behind me open slowly and I froze.

"Jandi?", Jungkooks raspy voice appeared, slowly coming closer to me and hugging me from behind. "What's wrong?", he whispered into my ear, making me shiver.

"I-I forgot about that t-thing I had to do... That group project.", I lied, turning around slowly, facing Jungkook. "So I have to leave now."

I looked at him and saw a pout forming in his face. He came closer and placed a kiss on my forehead. It broke my heart and I couldn't bear to be here with him any longer. "I'm gonna get ready, see you later.", I said, stroking his arm and heading to my bedroom.

"I'll wait for you.", he said smiling and walked back to his room.