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RaeJae's POV:

"Rae! Come look at-"

"I'm taking a shower!" I shout, cutting Jungkook off right as I enter the dorm.

I burst through my bathroom door and slam it shut, locking it as I press my back against it. There's no way I can control the anxiety I feel right now, I need time to find a way to overcome it.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think I just rejected Park Jimin. How I didn't notice his feelings before is past my judgment, but I can't imagine what I've put him through.

He's the Hyung that I talked to the most about Yoongi, yet meanwhile he was secretly falling for me. Or am I exaggerating things?

I came to this realization after the shoot, and knew I needed to find a way to tell him to move on. However, I didn't know how except to make my feelings for Yoongi known.

His heart is probably shattered... I'm such a bad person. I should've just out right told him that I knew and gently let him down... but there's no way to gently go about that situation.

Either way it's going to hurt, one way or another.

Am I being taught a lesson? First Jungkook, then Jimin, while all along I've been head over heals in love with Yoongi. Is this a sign that just like Jimin and Jungkook are moving on from me, I should move on from Yoongi?

I don't even see myself as someone to be up to their level? How have I even managed to capture the attention of Jimin and Jungkook in that way? Why do these feelings have to exist in the first place?

If all of us just looked at each other how we used to, this pain in all of us wouldn't exist.

At this point I don't want Yoongi or anyone to ever see the video of Jimin and I. I just want it, and all of our romantic feelings towards who we like to disappear.

I hear some commotion coming from the living room and decide that it's worse for me to stay simply holed up in here. With that in mind, I exit the bathroom just as Yoongi walks in, shortly followed by Jimin.

"What's with the fluffy pajamas?" I look him up and down, holding back some laughter.

"Why? Is it a crime for me to wear this?" He tilts his head.

I draw my lips in and nod, "No, I guess not,"

"Hyung is trying to be more like-able these days," Jimin adds as he passes us.

"Are you busy?" Yoongi asks me suddenly.

"Uh, Not really, Why?"

"Will you come to the studio with me? I need help with something," He explains.

"Okay, sure," I nod, watching him turn to the door to leave.

"Hyung!" I exclaim, "there's no way I'm going with you if you're planning on wearing that,"

"Aish, I forgot," He sheepishly smiles, running/shuffling back to his room to change.

I shake my head at his ridiculousness, wondering why he suddenly invited me to the studio after being mad with me for the past week.

"YAH!"

I spin around to Jungkook with his arms cross over his chest.