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Jimin's POV:

Shït I'm such a fücking idiot.

"But I don't regret it," I point to myself in the mirror, saying it out loud as if that would make me believe it.

I really wasn't going to let myself go there, but when she was giggling about the way I looked at her I got angry. Maybe angry isn't the way to put it... jealous? I've never let jealousy take over me like that.

It just felt as if I were actually Yoongi, she wouldn't have made the comment about me looking at her like that.

And then I told her pretend I was Yoongi and I couldn't help myself but to prove my own statement wrong.

"Aish I regret it," I whisper, burying my head in my hands.

Whatever, it can't be changed now. The only thing I can do is insist that it was only acting... even though she kissed me back.

I can't count that factor though, considering she was only pretending I was Yoongi.

It's not fair for me to take her heart after Yoongi already has it.

"Jimin-Ssi, it's time for you to go back to the dance studio!" One of my mangers calls to me.

"Alright!" I call back, fixing my hair in the mirror before walking to the van.

I place myself in my usual seat, waiting on RaeJae to arrive. When she finally does she only briefly looks at me before sitting in the middle section. Usually she sits right next to me...

She did on the ride over here anyway.

I sigh, feeling more embarrassed and guilty. Isn't it funny that I have to play off real feelings as acting, and then sit here and act as if they never meant anything to me.

My real life has become an acting.

Pushing my thoughts aside, I move into the seat next to her as an attempt to ease the awkwardness. It's my fault for doing this, so the least I can do is fix it.

There is a tiny bit of hope, though. That she enjoyed it as much as I did. However, why does it have to be that my hope makes me into the worst friend in the world.

I stare at my hands in my lap, catching a glimpse of RaeJae looking at me out of the corner of my eye. It takes courage, but I turn to meet her gaze and she quickly looks away.

"Why are you being so awkward?" I giggle.

"I-I'm not!" She stutters, making eye contact with me for just a quick moment again.

"You are," I sigh.

"Well my life is awkward," She says back, earning a chuckle from me.

"Are you Jin Hyung now?"

"N-no," she pauses, "I just wasn't expecting you to...."

"To take your first real kiss?" I raise my eyebrows, not even trying to beat around the bush.

"What? That wasn't even my first kiss!" She exclaims, deeming somewhat offended.

"I said real kiss," I mumble, watching her role her eyes.

"That's not even the point. You didn't have to kiss me,"

"It's called acting. You don't have to get so awkward about it," I sigh.

"But director-Nim said it wasn't necessary," She snaps.