Poetry and Thoughts

Hurt

It hurts
Everything hurts
Yet I don't feel a thing
I can't stop feeling hurt
But there's nothing to hurt about

I'm pushing people away even when they just want to help

He is begging me to talk to him but I can't

I deal with these things on my own I can't let myself get weak again

I can't let my heart and mind fall into someone else's hands

Not again

When I was with him I let myself become unguarded
I was in love and I haven't been in love sense.... well not that deep in love

He hurt me so much

The next boyfriend I had after him was so mentally abusive to me I never told anyone because I never wanted to be a victim

I beat myself down because of how low he made me feel and I still believe he is right

I'll never be the same bright smiley girl before I met him

I show myself off as bright and smiley cause that's the default when behind the smile I'm in pain yet nothing hurts

I give up on everything
I'm tired of my heart being broken

I'm just counting down the days of when I actually die from a broken heart as my heart string slowly tear and rip apart

I give up on love

It hurts for no reason