Poetry and Thoughts

No food zone

I'm going back to not eating

I've eased in a little slow but I do say I'm not doing bad

I've been trying for the past week

It's just been hard with jess coming over a lot

The night before last I didn't eat but then I broke

I was high and I came down with a lot of anxiety so I ate

But not much

Today I haven't eaten and once it reaches 6 am it will be officially me not eating for 24 hours

I do get hungry but once I get past it it isn't bad at all

I'm going to try and keep a log of everything I eat if I do eat but I'm trying not to eat at all

Right now it's hard cause I'm bored and when I'm bored I want to eat

I'm holding back tho

I just don't want to be like this anymore  so hopefully this works

I've also only been drinking water or milk and taking these diet pills I found

Hopefully this works

I might even take my pcos pills cause I think they started helping me loose weight

The thing is tho I'm supposed to eat with those

They make me feel really sick if I don't eat with them so I might just take them right before I go to sleep so I can sleep and not have to worry about getting up

We also have a scale but I think it's broken cause it doesn't give me a consistent number when I step on it but I'm going to try and log my weight to see if it works

I wanna try and loose 100 pounds cause I'm tired of being 300

I feel trapped and I hate it

I'm going to also try working out so that helps me burn fat

I'm also going to try and get 100% lemon juice to add to my water cause I know it can help

I also have this supposed weight loss drink that should help but we'll see

If I do have to eat tho I'll only do a little bit when necessary

Wish me luck

Hopefully I can go for a whole month without breaking but we'll see

Bye