Poetry and Thoughts

Idk

Idk what to type here or anything I just want to write something

I don't know why but I feel so alone
Yes I have friends
Yes I have family
And yes I have an amazing girlfriend
But for some reason
My heart feels empty
I hate this feeling
It makes me not do anything
I want to write a chapter of a book
But I can't
My body is refusing
I'm forcing myself right now
I'm scared if I stop typing
That I'll just sit here and do nothing
I want to do something
I want to talk to people
But my mind and heart are refusing
I'm scared that if someone talks to me I'll reply but it will seem like I don't want to talk
If you talk to me and I don't seem like I'm into the conversation it's not that I just feel empty
Idk what I want
Idk what I need
I'm just typing my feelings
I guess I'll take a bath
Maybe that will make me feel better
Idk
It's not anyone's fault
I guess I'll go
I'll stop annoying you
I guess I'll leave
I'll stop bothering you
Bye
I guess
Goodbye
I guess
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