Poetry and Thoughts

discovered

I've discovered food disgusts me

Even when I think about it I wanna throw up

I only "want" To eat because I'm bored

Today is it

I'm no longer giving into the temptation of food

It makes me sick anyways

Only water and lemon water

If I need something to eat it will only be fresh, no cans or boxes

And it must be healthy

I shall have no wheat or grains nor starches

That's it

I won't eat

I hate myself enough

I'm very good at hiding it

No one suspects this is going on

One day I fear they find this journal

But this is the only thing keeping me sane

The secret won't slip out of my mouth because it's like in telling someone by writing in this book

This isn't a cry for help

This is my way of being sane through this

Bye for now I'll start updating every day like I used to

With what I ate of course

Which hopefully will be nothing

It will start right now and the journal entries will start tomorrow night