Poetry and Thoughts

disgusting

Why

Why did you ever like me

I've always been like this

A disgusting girl

I'll be unloved forever

I'll only give love and not receive

I gave you all my love and I know you never loved me

How could you

I'm aweful

Ugly

Worthless

Disgusting

You said you loved me

But I knew

I knew you were lying

So why did you ever date me

I should of killed myself that night

I was at the park I brought a knife

It was the only thing I could think of

I held it at my throat and almost did it

But I didn't

I looked and saw the tree

The tree you took a picture of

You gave me that picture

That's when we were first dating

I saw the tree and thought of you

It was just three weeks after we started dating when I went to kill myself

We were dating at the time

I should of just killed myself

You wouldn't of missed me

I know you wouldn't

You never loved me then

Next time I'll pull the trigger