Poetry and Thoughts

day 6&7&8

Jessika spent two nights in a row

I had to eat

She can't know

No one can know

She left at 2 today

I wanted to throw up

I think I almost did

I wish I did

Tomorrow I'm starting over and I'm not eating

I can't disappoint you

I wanna prove to you I can do it

You don't know

But I'm doing it for you

Because of you

I feel so disgusting

You left me because I look like this

I'll change

I'll gut myself if I have to

I just want it gone

Day 6

A lot

Day 7

A lot

Day 8

a lot

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I just wanna be done

I'm learning to do better

I don't even like food

It's so gross

If I eat anything it can't be fatty or greasy

I've gotten sick from it

I don't even like sweet things

I just wanna die

Please let me die

You wanna die

So why can't I

I'm sorry for what I did to you

I wish you would just get out of my head