Poetry and Thoughts

happy

I'm happy once again

For the first time in a long time I'm happy

I've already dated two people this year and now I'm single again

But this time was my choice

I discovered I have what is called PCOS

It's awful and I don't wish anyone to have it

I got it when I was 13 and that's what I had the weight gain

PCOS has affected my body and mind in awful ways and now that we found it we can make it better

I discovered colors affect my mental health

It doesn't really do it with clothing

Just hair

I learned a blue/green makes me depressed and stressed

Pink is happy

Purple is confidence

I have purple hair rn and everything has been better

I haven't been depressed at all if anything

My anxiety has gotten worst that ever, it's hard for me to even make a phone call with a robot

This has kept me from getting a job or making more friends or even having a normal conversation

I wish I didn't have this, I just want to be normal

I've been writing more, even though I haven't recently, but I'm taking a long creative break so I don't get fried out.

I should be getting a job soon. Hopefully at third planet in the town east mall. I just want to have money to do stuff with my friends and get the things I want and need.

If I get the job there and I get a car instead of using my grandmas, after a few months I'll apply at Walmart and work 3rd shift and if jessika applies with me and gets the same shift we'll work together and be able to move out together. Meaning I won't have to sleep on a couch anymore.

I hope everything works out

I hope I continue to be happy like this but with less stress and anxiety

If things go to plan than that means I can go fly to Maine and visit my friend Alex for the first time. I owe him a lot and it will be great meeting him irl, we're already close friends but meeting irl will be special to me

So anyways

See ya later