I never thought I'd download this and write on here again
But I'm wrong
It was in September I was so happy
And after that I've been so happy
By why now
Why now am I feeling like this
Why can't I be happy
I had been clean from cutting sense may but I'm no longer clean
I cut three days ago even when I felt so happy but then why did I do it
Did I truly feel happy
I'm learning I no longer feel the things I thought I did
I just know how they felt so I pretend
It's like when I'm happy I know I'm happy but I don't feel happy
When I'm angry or mad or sad I know I am those things but I never feel it
I just want to feel something
Is that why I cut?
Do I could feel pain
But even then
Did I truly feel pain
I must search and search for a blade
I need it
I need to feel something
So I don't feel do insane
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Poetry and Thoughts
Poetrythings I think and write, no reason to be. some have meaning, most don't.