Poetry and Thoughts

Love

Jess came over last night

It was the first time seeing each other sense the crash

We talked a lot

It was good

We talked about the crash

It's crazy to think it happened just two weeks ago

I talked about 𝚑𝚒𝚖

I tend to talk about 𝚑𝚒𝚖 a lot

He really cares for me

He always worries about me

He gets me to talk about the bad stuff

I talk about 𝚑𝚒𝚖 a lot to my friends because he means a lot to me

He's talked me out of suicide before

I wonder how he'd react if he knew I cut

As Jess and I were talking she says

"He's kinda in love with you"

I look at her with tears streaming down my face and say words I never thought I'd say in my life

"I kinda am in love with him"

It breaks my heart

I never wanted to fall in love with 𝚑𝚒𝚖

He's my best friend

I know he doesn't feel the same way

And I couldn't care less

I'd rather 𝚑𝚒𝚖 be my friend for the rest of my life

Than

Date 𝚑𝚒𝚖 and ruin everything

I just want 𝚑𝚒𝚖 happy and to see him smile everyday

I really love 𝚑𝚒𝚖 but I can't