APUI: Volume 1 - My Life as a Werewolf

Chapter 16: There Are Many Things No One Knows

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I looked down at the blade in my hand. "Don't do this" I screamed at myself. "You're better than this" "But he lied to us. He hates us" there were so many conflicted thoughts running through my head. I couldn't ask my wolf for guidance, she was too heart broken to talk. Another jab of pain rippled through my body and I had to grab a lamp post to stop myself from falling over. My wolf, Emily, whimpered. "What good will this do? He will think he's won" That's true. I didn't want him to win. I just wanted to forget, even if it was only for a short amount of time. I looked around the park and had an idea. What could I climb? I ran over to the biggest tree in the park; I could do this.

Every movement was calculated. If I stuffed up once it would hurt, if I stuffed up twice I would die. I kept climbing the tree and slowly forgot about Xander, my whole focus was on keeping my footing and handholds secure. I looked up at the next branch and realised I would have to jump for it - yay 'dino' move! I let go of my current handholds on the trunk and bent my legs before springing into the air and catching the branch. I began to swing myself across to get footholds on the trunk so I could get onto the branch. Ahh, there's nothing like some good old life threatening activities to get you're mind off you're mate. Or you're EX-mate, seeing as he rejected me and I accepted it. He's a good for nothing shitty peice of fucking crap that should go fuck himself and stick a hat up his ass because he's such a fucking asshat and I don't know why I ever trusted him that mother fucking prick that I should have never allowed to call my mate because he's such a dip shi... I swung again put my feet on the best footholds, or so I thought. The left knoll of the tree was rotting and gave away when I put my foot on it, causing my right foot to slip off it's hold. Shit! My mind stopped it's thoughts of how much of an idiot Xander was and focused solely on the task at hand. I readjusted my hands and swung again, this time using two good footholds. The rest of my climb went smoothly. As I sat in the canopy my phone started ringing. I grabbed it out if my pocket and answered it. It was Brett, Xander's big brother.

"Xander has fallen off a bridge" he said sounding out of breath. Da faque? "What the fuck do you mean?" I asked. Even though we were technically no longer mates my wolf was still sad. Brett answered slowly "I know that you guys rejected each other because he was cheating on you and... things... so I was following him. As he was walking along the bridge a car swerved and hit him before pushing him through the barrier and off the bridge. The car managed to stop before it followed him but it has blood stains and... Ugh, it's horrible. Please get here ASAP." Emily was horrified at the fact that her EX-mate was dead but even more horrified at the fact she didn't notice. 'of course we didn't notice!' I said. 'We were climbing a tree and the mate bond has been destroyed.' I can't believe that my wolf thought that we could still have feelings for Xander without the mate bond. I mean Xander is, now was, mighty fine but he's not the kind if guy you can actually LOVE.

LOVE. Love. love.

It's the cause of all my problems. I loved my parents and got emotionally hurt when they were murdered. I 'loved' Xander and got emotionally hurt when he rejected me and died.

I swear that I will never fall love again, I thought, just as I fell of the tree and landed on the ground 20m below. As I blacked out from the pain and injuries one final thought went through my head: Now I can forget for a bit.

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A/N

I decided to give you a bit of graces back story. If your confused:

Grace had a mate called Xander

He cheated on her and... things...

He rejected her and she accepted

Grace was contemplating suicide or self harm

Xander was in a car crash and fell off a bridge

Grace was in a tree thinking when she found out

She fell out of the tree and became unconscious

Eventually this will all make sense... and grace will be having other memories... which are all going to be out of order... but still make sense ... once I reveal all my secrets

G'night,

Grace 😴

Ps. I should update tomorrow... Or the next day... but probs tomorrow