Rainbow - BTS

6 - Indigo

indigo washes over some like an endless tide
salt water rubbing into wounds that will never heal
hurling into their hearts at a million miles an hour
with the force of a bullet.

indigo is the dark side of humanity
the people left behind in the dust by the happy, by the carefree
agonising over everything and praised for none of it
too used to the pain to care.

they're used to being broken, having dealt with it a million times
fixing gets harder as ever smaller fragments don't fit
darkness taking the place of light
leaving them helpless, stuck in a constant fight or flight.

Min Yoongi is not a bright person, most of the time. He's a poet, a thinker, one of those who lives on the edge of alive and surviving, friends with a few and distrustful of many.

He wasn't always an indigo.

Before anyone he now knows came into his life, his hair was pitch black. His parents were horrified by the shade, viewing it as proof that they had created a defective child. So he was put into the childcare system as a baby, never got on with anyone he interacted with. Eventually, at the tender age of twelve, he chose to run away.

That single decision led him to meeting a young boy named Kim Namjoon in the streets. A boy who offered to give him a better life, a tiny family that would help him become a happier person, turn his storm clouds into sunshine. Namjoon brought Yoongi to his mother and introduced the two.

She took him in without hesitation, and the two blues helped Yoongi see the positive side of life, something he didn't think was possible. His dark attitude became more positive, and his hair became indigo as a result. Lightening up a little. Literally.

He threw himself into literature and music, headfirst, trying to find a way to express himself which wouldn't end up with scars. Having lived with two logical people for ten years, he didn't see the point, but knew he had to find an outlet.

Hoseok was taking Journalism as a degree at the time, and offered to try and publish a few poems with the help of some of his friends. The Sunshine Publishing Company was set up the next summer, and everything began to fall into place.

Nowadays, he's a well known poet, and Jungkook is his illustrator. They work together better than any other pairing of clients in the whole company, and their partnership has a large following all around the world. It's a productive life, but it still feels empty. Something is still missing.

Because, despite all of the attention and the positivity from outside sources, Min Yoongi is lonely. He lives alone, works alone for the most part, and has no romantic connection to anyone. Nobody can tell him when to stop, when to eat, when to do anything. Namjoon visits him almost daily, sometimes with his mother, or his boyfriend Jin and boyfriend's brother Taehyung.

But it's just not the same.

And now, hearing about the potential success of Kim Taehyung, hearing about the issues Jin faces at work with that asshole of a boss, this new employee at Namjoon's shop. All of it. It just seems like too much. The world is moving on too fast, a motorway flowing forward whilst he's stuck in second gear. It's a little overwhelming, but he knows better than to chase the thought.

He'll end up unable to move out of bed for another few days. And he needs to get up tomorrow. He has a meeting with Namjoon and Hoseok. They're trying to figure out how best to market this next set of poems. Cover art, advertising, costs. All of it. And he needs to be there.

The book is due on the shelves in a month. He needs to make sure everything works out. If it doesn't, his whole fandom will be let down. And that's a lot of pressure, sure, but it's pressure he loves. It gives him the motivation to carry on writing, carry on working.