Who are you? (TomTord)

29. Broken shards

Tord's POV:

Tom ran into his room. I heard the door lock. I sighed and looked down. Edd and Matt calmed down. "Hey, Tord. Don't worry. It was just a joke!" Edd said and placed a hand on my shoulder, smiling. I looked up at him.

"...Right..." I said. His smile faded. "It doesn't change anything between you two... Unless..." He smirked. Matt did the same. "You really loooove him!" He said. I blushed and looked down again. "But, Tom looked...kinda hurt...sad...or... I don't even know anymore..." I said.

"He's fine, don't worry." Edd said. "Yeah. Your boyfriend is fine." Matt said. I blushed even more. "Guys! He's not. My. Boyfriend!" I said. They giggled. "But you want him to be!" Edd said in a teasing voice.

I felt...sad. I didn't know, why. I didn't know what should I do. So I just decided to go to Tom's room. I knocked on the door.

"W-who is it?" I heard a voice coming from inside. It sounded like he was crying... I felt horrible. "It's me, Tord. Can I come in?" I asked him in a soft voice. There was silence for a while when I heard the door unlock.

Tom opened the door, smiling. But something about that smile seemed...off. "Hey, Tord." He said. I raised an eyebrow. "Hey..." I answered. "Do you need something?" He asked. I sighed. "It's just that...I'm sorry about what happened..." I said.

He placed a hand on my shoulder. "Hey, it's okay! It's not your fault." He said, still smiling. Okay, that made me feel suspicious.

"Tom... Are you okay?" I asked him. "I'm alright, don't worry about me." He answered. "Ooookay. Can I come in?" I asked. He nodded. He let me in and sat sat on his bed. I sat next to him.

"So, how are you?" He asked. I was...suprised. I did not expect that. "I'm good. But...something seems off with you." I answered and crossed my arms. He raised an eyebrow. "Huh? What do you mean?"

"Tom... You're acting weird... I can tell there's something wrong." I said. "Heh, no, you dummy!" He said and grinned. I scooted closer to him and just kept looking in his 'eyes'. I could see that he was starting to sweat.

"Tom..." His grin faded a little. "...You know you can trust me, right? If something's wrong, you can just tell me." I said and placed my hand on his shoulder. He frowned and looked down. "It's nothing, Tord." He said.

"Tom. Tell me." I said. He shook his head. "Tom!" I said and raised my voice a little. He looked up at me with tears in his 'eyes'. "Tell me! What did I do wrong?" I asked him. "Y-you did nothing wrong..." He said.

"Then tell me what happened." I said. "I-I just... Urg!" He suddenly pulled me closer to him and kissed me. My eyes were widened in shock, but I kissed him back. And that suprised him. After a while, he pulled away.

"T-Tord..." He said. I smiled at him. "I love you, Tom..." I said, blushing. He stared at me for a few seconds before smiling and hugging me tightly. "I love you too!" He said. I felt...happy. I hugged him back.

"So, are we like...a thing now?" He asked. "Well, if you want to, then oka-" He cut me off. "Yes!" He yelled. I chuckled. "Alright then." He was smiling. And it was real. His smile...was real. So...perfect... It looked sweet... I loved everything about him.

...And that was a problem... He...was too perfect... I didn't deserve him... Especially after what I did to him. What I did to them... No... I didn't deserve any of this... Then why?... My smile faded and I sighed.

Tom looked at me. "Tord? Are you okay?" He asked. I pulled away from the hug and stood up. "T-Tord?" I looked at him. "I'm fine. Don't worry." I said and smiled at him. "Okay?" He said. "I'm just...gonna go to the bathroom." I said and left his room.

I walked into the bathroom and locked the door. I sat down on the floor and curled up in a ball. I hid my face and cried.

'I'm such a disappointment...' I thought and wiped my tears away. I stood up again and looked into the mirror. When I saw my scarred face, I felt my blood boil.

I glared at myself. I still didn't have my robotic arm on. I had the eyepatch that Paul and Patryck gave me at the army base... Army...base... 'I'm disgusting. I look like a corpse, I am leading an army and I tried to rule the world! What is wrong with me!?' I thought.

At this point, I was clearly mad at myself. I hated myself for what I had done to my friends. I took a deep breath. I didn't see myself in the mirror. I just saw a monster...a traitor... Flashbacks of me almost killing my friends were playing in my mind.

I couldn't hold it anymore. "It's all your fault!" I yelled and smashed the mirror with my left hand. I could hear the mirror break and shatter. I fell backwards on my head, my hand bleeding. I just layed there, on the floor, staring at the ceiling. Empty shards of the broken mirror and small pools of my blood were surrounding me.

I sighed and closed my eyes. Why did I do that... How could I be so stupid? I opened my eyes again when I heard banging on the door. "Tord! Tord, are you okay? We heard something break and a thud!" Edd yelled from the other side of the door.

I didn't answer. Blood was coming out of my head. I carefully raised my hand and touched the place where the blood was coming from. I flinched when I cut myself with the shard that was stuck in my head.

I heard more banging. "Tord! Answer me! Are you alright!?" This time, I heard...Tom... Tears were forming in my eyes when I heard his voice. "I'm...sorry..." I managed to say before I finally passed out, my head hurting. "Tord!!!"

Tom's POV:

I was worried. I didn't know what happened in there, but I knew it wasn't anything good. "T-Tord!?" I yelled his name again in panic. "Oh god, what do we do!?" Edd asked. "I-I don't know! What happened to Tord?" Matt asked.

"I...I have no idea..." I answered. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't just stand here. I smashed the door open. And what I saw terrified me...