School Hunk || Felix Lee

XIV

It's not possible.

No way.

It must be a mistake.

There is no possible way that I like that doofus, she's got nothing worth liking. I keep thinking of her, it's getting to the point where I'm out of my mind now. I need help, someone needs to take me to the hospital to get me treated.

I slumped on to my locker and banged my head. I must be out of my mind.

"Felix, what are you doing? Are you okay?"
"No, I'm not okay." I turned around and to my surprise, it's not Chris or Kerby, it's Lilliana still on her crutches. I got startled and my heart stopped beating for a few milliseconds. This is not good for my heart.
"What are you doing here at the year ten locker area?" I don't think my brain can process much at the moment, she's too close.
"Well, there's no reason why I can't be here." My heart is beating so fast, I can hear it in my ears. I'm need to go find Chris, I have to before my heart can't handle it anymore.
"Felix?"
"Huh? Um- yeah?"
"You're looking a little red, are you sick?" Red? Well, that totally helps.
"I'm gonna go find Chris, bye." And I left as fast as I could. Instead of going to find my friends I think hanging at the back of the main block is better, better for me to cool down.

I facepalmed myself, that conversation with Lilliana was shit, I wasn't myself. It was weird.

Anyway, let me get this straight. I like a girl called Lilliana who is a complete idiot and doesn't like me back. This is just stupid.

No this isn't stupid, I'm stupid.

"Felix." 
"Go away." I still haven't revived from the last heart attack yet, I don't want to get attacked again yet.
"What happened."
"Why don't you ask yourself? You were there when it happened."
"What did I ever do to you?" I looked up and Chris was standing there in front of me, not Lilliana. Whoops.
"Why are you here, Chris?"
"Well, you weren't at the lockers and I couldn't find you in the courtyard so I assumed you were here. Now tell me, when and what did I do to you." He sat down on the floor next to me.
"You're fine, I thought you were someone else."
"Who?"
"No one."
"Well, it has to be someone."
"It's that pale little boy outside the school gate." I pointed to the bushes.
"Where?" There wasn't really a person there I'm just trying to change the topic.
"Right there, can't you see it?"
"No."
"He's right there."
"You're scaring me." He looked at me with a scared face.

Then, the bell goes. I'm so thankful, otherwise, Chris might've continued to question who that person I was talking about was.

~~~~

Her name looks nice in cursive script. It's all over the piece of paper, it looks really nice.
"Felix, you like her, don't you?" I slowly turned my head to see who was whispering in my ear.
"Norton, I thought you would be different to Chris and Kerby, but you're just as nosy."
"You haven't answered my question yet."
"No."
"Then, explain why her name is all over your page."
"Her name looks nice in cursive doesn't it?" He took a look and then looked back at me like I'm stupid.
"Are you sure you don't like her?"
"No."
"So, you do like her."
"Fine, I do, you got a problem with that?"
"No, I ship you two. This is great."
"Fuck off Norton."
"First of all, that's a bit rude don't you think? Second of all, what's wrong with me shipping you two. Third of all, no, I will not fuck off, I'm underaged."
"You're so chatty and annoying today," I said and he looked a bit offended.

Okay, I finally admit to myself I like Lilliana and I see her more than just a mere friend, but what's the point if she doesn't like me back.

I wrote her name on my wrist, in cursive too. It looks really pretty. I covered it up with my sleeve and put the piece of paper with her name all over it in my bag carefully before getting my lunch, I don't want the piece of paper to be wrecked and ripped.

Then, Norton started nudging me, "the fuck you want, Norton?"
"Your princess is coming towards this way." What?

"Felix!" Lilliana screamed as she ran towards me, it caught a lot of people's attention. This is a really awkward situation.
"He-hey Lilliana," I said stuttering a little while she sat next to me. Almost every pair of eyes in the courtyard was staring in this direction.

"And you said you two were just friends." Norton stated.
"We really are just friends," Lilliana said. I can read what's inside Norton's mind right now, it's probably something like 'Oooooh, Felix got friend zoned'.

"Oh, who do we have here?" Chris making a late appearance.
"Where have you been?" 

"I was helping out in the languages staff room. Anyway, Felix, come over here, I have something to ask you in private." Here goes nothing then, Norton knows anyway so there's no point hiding it from Chris.

I followed him and walked away from Norton and Lilliana.
"Have you and Lilliana happened yet?"
"What do you mean?"
"Tsk, are you two dating yet?"
"No! What the heck Chris?"
"You like her though, right?"
"Yeah, so?"

He suddenly pulled me in for a really tight hug and was started jumping around and getting out of control, "You two are going to be so cute together, Oh my god." He's hugging me too tightly, if he hugs any tighter my guts will spill out, "Chris, let go," I wheezed.
"Oh, sorry Felix. I'm just too happy, I can't contain my excitement. I ship you two, you know that, right?"
"Yes, I can clearly see that."

My life is going to be really miserable as long as my friends are around. Chris skipped back to Norton and Lilliana like a little kid. I also walked back and finished my lunch...next to Lilliana. She doesn't make me nervous or anything though, just shy.

 Chris, Norton and Kerby are definitely not gonna let me rest until I get together with Lilliana. 

There has been a question stuck in my head since I realised I like Lilliana, Why out of the girls in the world, it had to be Lilliana?

It just had to be her.

A/N

Where did I get the 'little pale boy' idea from? Well, I have a friend and she told me she saw a pale little boy outside the school in the bushes during PE class.

What does it feel like to like someone or have a crush? 'cause I don't actually know, I've never had a crush.

Lottie