School Hunk || Felix Lee

XXXIII

"What happened? You were gone for days," Chris said. "I-" then, a hiccup had interrupted me and I could feel tears forming in my eyes again.

"Chris, you hit a nerve," Kerby stated. "Well, I can clearly see that."

Chris looked back at me and said, "it's okay if you don't want to tell me."

"My-my mum pa- passed away," I said as I continued to be interrupted by hiccups. As soon as I said that, the tears that formed in my eyes rolled down my cheeks. "I'm so sorry..." Chris said sounding sympathetic.

Howard, Kerby and Norton, their eyes were all filled with sympathy.

Nevertheless, I still have one important thing I have to do today. Today's my last chance.

Lilliana came walking up to us with her lunch in hand. Here's my chance. 

I wanted to tell her but I just couldn't, not now. I'm not ready. But, I'm running out of time.

Then, the bell went. I just lost my chance. Maybe after school, I will be able to tell her. We all went to our own classes and I went to mine.

My mind could not take in any information that the teacher's talking about. My mind is blank. Well, not completely blank. I'm thinking about how I could tell her this.

"Felix Lee!" I came back to reality and the teacher was looking angry, that's not good. "Would you mind explaining what I just said?"

Shit.

I don't know what he's been talking about, I haven't been listening. There was a long moment of silence until he started talking again, "please pay attention in class Mr Lee. Don't go daydreaming again."

I tried to pay attention, but I just simply can't, not with all the things that have been happening to me. There's too much drama in my life. Too much.

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As soon as the bell goes, the stairwells were filled with people, everyone rushing to get home. But, I'm still in the classroom packing my bag.

Maybe now, I can tell her. 

I walked to the year 8 locker area so I could tell her. The school was already empty, this is the perfect chance to tell her.

She closed her locker and walked towards me, "let's go home now!" she said and started walking off. "Wait," I said making her stop. She turned around and faced me, "What is it?" I gathered up all my confidence, inhaling and exhaling, "I think we should go our separate ways."

She was shocked, "wait, what do you mean separate ways?" she said with a nervous laughter. "Let's break up," I said coldly, but it hurts, it hurts a lot to say that. My heart broke into many more little pieces.

She started laughing hysterically, "you're joking, right? Like that time I put confetti in your locker?" She said, "well, stop. It's not funny."

I shook my head, "this isn't a joke."
"Is it because of your mum? I said we can get through this together, we can get through everything together!" I shook my head, tears forming again in my eyes.

"You can't leave me! Unless you don't love me anymore!" She yelled, "Say that you don't love me anymore. Say it! Say it to my face!" I gulped.

I can't say that. Not to her.

"I- I-" I stuttered but couldn't get the words out, "I don't love you anymore..." I said quietly and softly. And with that, it absolutely broke me. Not my heart but everywhere.

She cupped my face and smashed her lips on mine. Those lips that I missed, were on mine. The kiss became salty due to the tears that ran down my face. But, I couldn't help but respond to the kiss.

She pulled away still cupping my face, "now, say it again," she said.

It became difficult for me to form those words in my mouth but I managed. Just. "I- I- don't- l-love you a-anymore." I stuttered a lot but I got it out.

She let go of my face, her arms dropped to her sides and her eyes gave me looks of disbelief. She stepped away from me and avoiding eye contact with me.

"I see, I see how it is."

"I'm sorry," I said to her trying to place my hands on her shoulders but she dodged my touch. "Don't touch me! You psycho!" She yelled and tears came running down her face. 

"Don't follow me," she said quietly and ran off.

Now that I think about it, this was the first time I saw her cry. She was always so strong and independent.

I broke her.

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I came home, energy drained out of my body. There are only two days left until the flight to Seoul and I still haven't started packing.

I grabbed my old suitcase from the garage and threw in anything I might need. Of course, including the essentials like clothes and hygiene items.

Suddenly, my phone rang. I looked at the screen, it was Chris. I picked it up.

"Hey, Felix."
"What's up?"
"I was just wondering, have you started packing for Seoul yet?"
"Just started."

There was a slight pause before he started talking again.

"So, how are you and Lilliana?" I hesitated to tell him, but he knew about my plan anyway, I guess it wouldn't hurt to tell him. "We broke up."
"right..." 

Now, there are two things that can bring me tears just at the thought of them. Mum and Lilliana. "Anyway, see you at the airport, I gotta go now," he said.
"Well, bye." And I hung up.

Without realising, another tear rolled down my face.

I've crying way too much for the past week and I'm tired of it. My eyes stung like mad and they're red as hell.

I stopped packing for a bit and lied down on my bed. 

I'm gonna miss a lot of people.

Lilliana, dad, Kerby, Howard, Norton and basically all of Sydney. But, mum, no matter where I am, where I go, I will still miss her. 

I wish I had the power to bring people back to life. Then, mum can still be with me here, right now.

However, one thing keeps coming back to me. Lilliana. 

Have I made the wrong choice?

A/N

Is this another double update I smell? Damn, we're getting closer and closer to the end of the book.

Please don't hate me for doing this, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Vote for this chapter if you hate me for making Felix and Lilliana break up.

Lottie