School Hunk || Felix Lee

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"Dad? What's wrong?" I said into the phone. I could hear him crying, something really bad must've happened, he almost never cries. "Please don't cry when I tell you this," he said in between sobs and hiccups. Cry? Why would I cry? "What's going on?" I asked out of pure concern. He tried to calm himself down a little so I will be able to comprehend what he is saying. "your mother, she's gone," he said.

Please don't let it be what I think he means by 'gone'. "What do you mean she's gone?" I asked, my voice trembling. "She wanted to come back home sooner and give you a surprise...but she was unfortunate and can't make it back now," he said with difficulty due to the hiccups. 

The phone slips out of my hand and falls on to the carpet with a thud. My back bangs on to the wall and my legs became weak causing me to fall to the ground. "Felix?" I could still hear dad say from the phone, but it was almost inaudible. "Whether if you can hear this or not, I'll be home in three days, please wait for me." And he hangs up.

I could start to feel tears welling up in my eyes. I scrunched myself up into a ball, wrapping my arms around my legs and burying my face into my knees, letting the tears fall.

I didn't even get to say goodbye or see her one last time.

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I haven't been to school for the past two days. Dad is coming home tomorrow and I don't know what to do.

I haven't eaten much, don't have the appetite and I'm going to starve myself. The tears that rolled down my face are now dried. I'm not crying anymore not because I've thought through it, just because I have no tears left. My eyes are probably red, puffy and gross.

I sit up on my bed crossing my legs and grabbed my phone from my bedside table, my screen was bombarded with notifications. Twelve missed calls and a couple texts from Lilliana. Three missed calls from Chris. And a couple texts from the others.

My hand automatically brings itself up to my screen and tapped Lilliana's contact calling her. She picked it up almost immediately. "Felix, where have you been? Do you know how worried I am?" She asked half-shouting. I didn't answer her, just sniffled a little, bringing my knees up to my chest. I don't know how to answer her. I just want her to be here with me. "Are you okay?" Her voice now toned down a lot and was full of concern, "I'm coming over now."

And she hung up before I could say anything.

A tear came rolling down my cheeks out of nowhere. I guess my tears have been refilled. Just the thought of what dad said brings tears, and I can't stop thinking about it.

After around fifteen minutes I heard an aggressive knock on the door. But, I don't have the energy to get up and open the door, the door's unlocked anyway.

I heard the door click open and tiny but fast footsteps coming closer to my room. 

Lilliana opened the door and I lifted my head, my eyes meeting hers. I must look pretty pathetic to her right now.

She sat down on my bed facing me while another tear rolls down my cheeks. 

"Are you okay?" She asked me, rubbing circles on my back. I shook my head. "Tell me." 
"My-" I was then interrupted by a hiccup. "Okay, calm down first, then tell me," she said continuing to rub circles on my back with her palms.

After a bit, once my hiccups have gone I told her what happened and her eyes were immediately filled with pity. "I didn't even get to meet her," she said softly and brought me into a hug. 

Although her hug didn't stop me from crying, it made me feel safe and it gave me a sense of comfort.

I hugged her by the waist and leaned my head on her shoulder, crying into her shirt and soaking it.

I should be the one protecting her, yet I'm here being pathetic and crying into her shoulder.

"It's okay, it'll be okay. We can get through this together," she said into my ear and patted my back, "we can get through everything together."

What she said gave me a sense of reassurance and comfort that flowed through everywhere of my body.

I can't leave for Korea without her. 

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I woke up to a clink on my bedside table.

Lilliana had put a bowl of what seems like soup there. "Oh, I'm sorry. Did I wake you up?" She asked.
"Yeah, It's okay," I said and sat up leaning on the headboard. 

My eyes stung from all the crying I've been doing.

"Have you been eating?" She asked. I just simply shook my head. "Either way, I made you soup. Eat up," she said scooping up a spoonful of soup and blew on it slightly before bringing it to my mouth. 

I don't have the appetite still, but I should probably eat something before I starve myself. I slurped up the soup and she scooped up more.

Just like that, she fed me spoon after spoon.

I should be the one looking after her, not the other way around.

I don't know if I'm still able to move to Korea. I can't live without her.

What am I going to do?

A/N

's comments are like drugs to me, I enjoy reading them. That's why I have been updating so frequently last week.

Btw I just need to remind you guys that this is an AU ff and that Felix's mum is probably alive. 

You guys better be thankful that I still wrote a chapter with a bruised finger. 

Lesson I learnt from the finger injury: don't let your friends steal your bag and try to get it back by holding on to your bag and end up falling to the ground on your butt. Other lesson: make plenty of other friends, they'll be able to help you get your bag back and smeck them.

Lottie