Thin Line

Chapter 30

"Justin." I say as he enters my bedroom.

Immediately I get up and hug him.

I haven't seen him since that day in the hospital, my parents sent me somewhere really far from home, and they thought it would be best for me to not have any visitors.

My parents came to visit on Christmas, but that was it.

Spending months away from everyone was hard, but I think it was a good thing.

I am so much better now.

I no longer see myself as fat.

I am not fat.

My weight is not even close to fat.

Learning how to eat normally again wasn't easy, I thought it would be after my sudden change of mentality, but I was very wrong.

Meals were still difficult for a while, but this time, they did get easier.

My fears of people seeing me as fat have started to go away.

My fears of people seeing me in certain things have gotten smaller as well.

I no longer feel the need to wear only loose clothes that hide what I look like.

I am not afraid for people to actually see what I look like anymore.

Now I know that no one sees me as fat.

Everything I thought was just in my head.

"Sierra, how are you?" Justin asks me, wondering how the many months he hadn't seen me during were.

"Good, great actually, I'm doing a lot better." I tell him, truthfully.

"You look great." He tells me.

"Thanks, I feel a lot better now, now that I am actually taking care of myself." I say to him.

"That's good Sierra, I'm glad that you are trying to get better." He says.

"I'm sorry though, for not before, I'm sorry that I pulled you into this mess." I say.

"Sierra, it's fine, all that matters is that you are healthy now." He tells me.

"I missed you." I tell him.

During the last few months I realized how hard it is to be away from him.

It is hard to be away from someone you love.

"I missed you too Sierra." He tells me.

I know all of this has been hard for me, but I am sure it has been hard for him too.

I could not imagine myself watching him go through everything I have.

"I am sorry that I ever thought that you were ever lying or wrong. You are right, I was no where near being in the right mental state to start a relationship. But thank you, I know how much you wanted to date me, because who wouldn't? But you decided to do what you thought was best for me. So thank you." I tell him.

He could have easily just decided to date me as he wanted to, but he didn't.

He knew what was best for me, and that is what he decided to do.

"Sierra, I would never have made a choice if I ever thought it would be bad for you, no matter how much I wanted to do something." He tells me.

"Thank you for that, it means a lot, knowing that you care about me so much." I tell him.

Justin is amazing.

Everything about him is just perfect.

He cares about me.