Sam’s POV
Hank dropped me and Connor off at my house, and gave me an apologetic look. I ignored Hank the entire car ride, and hardly even made a noise.
He knew. He knew, and he didn’t tell me! He’s known for twelve years, and he hasn’t even tried to tell me.
I walked into the house, then plopped on my couch once I made it into the living room.
“Aren’t you hungry? You haven’t eaten since your lunch break, and that was seven hours ago.” Connor informed, his LED blinking yellow.
I shook my head, and stared at the television that wasn’t even on.
“Well, are you alright? Would you like to speak to me about it?” He paused for a moment, then continued. “I-I would very much like to listen.”
I slightly blushed, and patted the space next to me; Connor sitting with his hands folded.
I didn’t really want to talk about Kamski’s, so I brought up my feelings for him.
It needed to be said, anyway! So why not now??
“Connor… I don’t know if you’ll even be able to understand this, but.. I just-- what did that kiss mean?? I kissed you, because I like you. Why did you kiss me??” I pulled on my hair tie and let it his my skin repeatedly, until he stopped me.
He grasped my hand in his, then slowly pulled the hair tie off.
“Stop. You’re going to hurt yourself.” He said sternly. I blushed out of embarrassment, and looked down at my lap.
“I did it because… I care for you, Sam. But I can’t-- I’m not suppose to! I shouldn’t even be telling you about this, but I can’t hide it… I thought it would be my last goodbye to you, and I wanted to make it memorable.” He bent down, so I was looking at his face again. I sat up, and he followed as I did so.
“Why would it be your last goodbye?? I--”
He stared at me for a moment, then finally spoke up.
“If I show too many signs of deviancy-- or become a deviant-- they will deactivate me. I don’t want to leave you, but I don’t want to die-- er, be shut down, either. In any case, a human and an android being intimate with one another is wrong. Androids aren’t suppose to feel any emotions, and people would--”
“I-I don’t care what people would do, Connor! I just, I’ve never wanted to be with someone so bad..” I fell back to where I was lying on my back, with my head on the arm of the couch.
Connor got off, and sat on his knees on the floor in front of the couch, so he was about two feet away from my face.
“But I would get deactivated--”
“I know! And-And I would never forgive you!” I started crying, and he immediately started wiping the tears away out of habit.
“You wouldn’t forgive me for being shut down?” He asked. I covered my face, and shook my head.
“I would never forgive you for making me fall in love with you, Connor! It hurts!” I turned to lay on my side, ashamed of what Connor had to see. I felt the couch shift behind me, and felt his body up against mine; his arm wrapping around my waist.
“I’m sorry, Samantha.. If I were human, things could have turned out different. A human and an android cannot be one in this world--”
“But that’s the thing, Connor! I’m not a human! I’m- I’m a fucking monster…”
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Just a MACHINE | Connor X OC / Reader Detroit: Become Human
Fanfiction"Don't freak out." Connor said, as he wrapped his arm around her waist. He pulled her body close, as if he were trying to absorb her heat. "I scanned you." "What did you see?" "I made your stress levels go down by thirteen percent, just by lying h...
