CHEER LEADER MEETS THE MVP

Chapter 40

I'm still in the car on my way to the nearest mall. Napapabuntong hininga nalang ako sa inis.   

"Manong, ihinto mo na lang po dito."

I changed my mind. 

I saw a park nearby at naisipan ko nalang na magpalamig. The mall is sure crowded right now and it's gonna be more stressful.

Naghanap ako ng lugar kung saan pwede tumambay, may nakikita akong mga bata kasama ang mga magulang nila. Naalala ko naman sina mom and dad. I miss them too. I never talked to them for days now, I wonder how are they doing. Or when are they coming back.

I'm still looking for a perfect spot when I saw--Zayn.

I feel numb.

I saw him with Mary--but that's not all. They're with a child.

There's a lot of questions circling on my mind right now. And I hope what I am thinking right now is just a caused of being paranoid.

I don't really know what to do. Should I approach them and ask them myself?

I'm scared, I don't wanna know.

The fact that he never said anything when I asked him earlier if where he is, there must be something going on here. And the fact that he's with his ex girlfriend and a child.

Should I convince myself that they are just babysitting?

I gasped.

Now that I think about it. 

I've been wondering why he can't just get rid of her and stay away from her since she's just part of his past. And get over it.

Does it mean---

I covered my mouth to avoid making a sound while gasping.

No! It can't be!

Parang nawala na ako sa sarili at tumakbo na ako palayo.

Malayo sa kanila...

Am I doing the right thing? I know this isn't me..I never run away before. 

I'm just scared--I can't face it. So it's better for me--us to run away. I become coward when it comes to him.

Saan na akong pupunta? Home? No--maybe if my brothers are not home then I'll go.

Inutusan ko nalang ang driver na mag-drive kahit saan. Napaluha na naman ako...

I know I jumped into conclusion without confronting them. Without knowing the truth. But still--it hurts like h*ll. He also lied to me. Can I still trust him?

I want to--but we've been through a lot in this relationship lately. And even if I don't want to admit it but I think I had enough.

The pain that I am feelin' right now is just too much. I don't know if I can still hold on to this little hope inside me.

*riinngg*

*riiinngg*

*riinngg*

Tiningnan ko kung sino ang tumawag.

(MOM)

Nagdadalawang-isip ako kung sasagutin ko ba or hindi. I know my mom--she will definitely knew something is going on just by hearing my voice.

Inantay ko nalang na humuinto magring ang phone ko tapos tinext ko nalang si mommy to make excuses.

And then I decided to go home, it doesn't matter if my brothers are home or not, I just want to lock myself up--I want to be alone.

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Nang dumating ako sa bahay, napansin kong wala ang mga kuya ko.

Thank goodness!

Agad akong nagpunta sa kwarto ko at nagshower.

I want to feel refresh after everything that happened today. And maybe it sounds weird but I love thinking things when I'm under the shower, I think a lot.

Na realised ko na I did the right thing, that I didn't confront them, dahil baka magmukha akong kawawa pag nagkataon. Espescially that I couldn't think straight for what I just saw at the park. At least I saved my *ss there. I just realised being coward can save you sometimes.

I bitterly laughed while putting shampoo on my hair.

Pero anong na'ng susunod, should I just keep running away?But-- it won't solved anything, i know. But I'm still scared to know the truth.

Should I meet him and ask? Or would it be better if I ask Mary? Maybe I'm will feel less hurt if I won't hear it from Zayn,right?

Ugh!

Of course I will still get hurt! Am I getting dumb? Tsk!

I turned off the shower.

Maybe I should just lie low for now, the campus is big, I can avoid them or ignore them, I think it would be better for me.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Hi Innkers! I hope you are all doing well, especially we are all facing hardship because of the virus COVID-19. I know it's been ages but i decided to continue writing this story. I hope y'all still support me til the very end,char! Hahaha. Anyway, this is just a very short update,but i think it's better than nothing,right? Lol. (unedited also)

Please stay at home and stay safe always!