A dream becomes reality (norman reedus fan fiction)

Chapter 38

Ok kayla calm down. Breathe. This should be a happy time right? You're gonna have a baby with the man of your dreams! Smile! Stop shaking! I was trying to give myself that little pep talk in the mirror in my trailer before I made my way to set. It wasn't working though. I know norman didn't want anymore kids. Hell I haven't even met the one he has yet! Maybe he wasn't as serious as I was. Then there's the show. How's that gonna work? They'll probably kill me off. My heart began to ache as I thought of that. I didn't want to be killed off! I just started! I ruined everything. I should've known this was all too good to be true. I sighed and walked out of my trailer down to set. How would I tell him? I just shook my head. I couldn't think of that right now, I had to work. I arrived about the same time as norman did. My heart started pounding of how nervous I was. I started to make my way towards him, but he made eye contact with me and walked away. I stopped confused? Why would he just walk away from me? I arched an eyebrow at Lauren who just shrugged. I decided to just shake it off hoping he was just in character. I mean he never did that before but just maybe this was different. We all crowded around Robert and I made my way beside norman. Robert began giving out directions for the day. I looked out of the corner of my eyes at norman. Normal he'd be doing the same and we'd laugh at each other, but today his eyes were focused on Robert. I sighed and reached my hand into his. He didn't even look down at our hands and what hurt the most is he didn't hold mine back. What was going on?! Wait a second...he didn't know did he? No he couldn't have. The only people that knew were me and Lauren. Once Robert ended his direction, he was starting with a scene with just daryl, Rick, Carl, and glen. Norman just walked away from me without a kiss or a smile. Just nothing. I began to shake with fear. He knows. He had to know if he's treating me like this. I quickly walked over to Lauren,

"did you tell him?"

"tell him what?" She whispered back.

"ya know about my condition?" I asked quietly.

"no I didn't" she whispered.

i looked back at the set as the boys started filming their scene. I felt my heart shatter as I looked back to Lauren,"I think he knows"

she looked at me and noticed tears begin to fill my eyes,"how do you know that?"

"he's ignoring me. Won't say a word to me. He's avoiding me and wouldn't even hold my hand! Lauren he knows" I whisper shouted as a tear began to fall.

she just pulled me in for a hug,"it's gonna be alright"

I didn't question it for the rest of filming. I think I just accepted it. I knew it was over and I had to be strong at least till I get back to the apartment. Thank god daryl and Lilly didn't have any one on one scenes today. Once the day was over I immediately made my way back to my trailer to get changed. Once I was fully changed and about left my trailor, something on my vanity caught my attention. It was a picture of me and norman acting like weirdos. I always had it there because it could make me smile, but now it just hurt. And hurt bad. A tear slid down my face and I about ripped the picture in half when a knock came at my door.

"It's open!" I yelled and quickly put the picture back and wiped my tears.

it surprised me when In walked norman. Must be coming to officially break up with me and tell me he didn't want the baby. His eyes were in the floor, avoiding eye contact,

"can I talk to you?"

i knew what was coming and honestly I didn't want to hear it. Hearing it from him would be worse.

"you don't have to...I understand." I whispered.

that brought his eyes up to me,"you do?"

"yeah I do and don't worry about it. I know you didn't want anymore kids and this just kinda happened." I said.

"wait wha.." He started to say but I cut him off,

"and I understand you can't be with me anymore, just please do me a favor...I don't want to hear you say it. I know it so can we just leave it at that? And don't worry about the baby. I won't hold any responsibility to you so can we just move on?" I asked.

norman just stood there wide eyed and frozen. I tried to fight back the tears from my eyes. This was seriously the worst moment of my life.

"Kayla what are you talking about? What baby?" He asked.

my breathing hitched and I began to shake. He didn't know before,

"weren't you coming In here to break up with me?" I asked nervously.

"no! Why the hell would I do that! And what baby?" He asked louder.

this kinda pissed me off,"umm I don't know cause you were avoiding me and completely ignoring me all day!"

"that's because I was nervous as hell! I thought I'd screw things up by this!" He snapped back.

"by what!" I asked.

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. I watched him as he went and sat down ion the couch. I followed him and sat down next to him.

"I'm sorry about all that. I shouldn't have done that. You know I love you right? You never have to worry about me leaving you." He said.

i nodded and felt a tear fall down my cheek. He wiped it away with his thumb and kissed me softly. I savored this kiss, knowing even though he just said that, this might be our last. He pulled away and sighed,

"I want ya to meet Mingus"

my eyes widened,"your son?"

"yea he's coming down to set in a few days, but I don't want ya to feel like I'm throwing a kid on you" he said.

"I'm basically doin the same thing to you" I mumbled.

"what?" He asked.

i smiled,"nothing and of course I'd love to meet your son"

he smiled,"really? That's awesome!"

I laughed as he kissed me. When we finally pulled away, I stood up and stuck out my hand for him which he gladly took. He stood up and we started to make our way to the door. I don't know how I did it but I avoided the baby subject again. Smiling at how clever I was I felt my hand squeezed and pulled back, bringing me to a halt. I looked at norman confused. He just stood there starring at me,

"what did you mean about a baby?"

my eyes widened and my heart pounded. Tears started coming to my eyes again as he looked at me worriedly. Well I guess it's now or never. I sighed and dropped his hand,

"I'm pregnant"