Blue Flames //Divergent Fanfic//

Going

Chapter 20:

Tobias' Perspective

    Natalie fell asleep about 20 minutes ago. I'm really worried about her. She is going through the same thing I went through. I always hoped she wouldn't have to go through anything like this. I look over at her, and she is shaking.

I walk over to her and rub her back. Her skin feels so cold. She may have the flameshooting, but other than that she functions as a normal person. She curls up into a little ball, and I realize how cold she is. I check the clothes to see how dry they are, and they are still damp. Natalie continues to shiver and I walk back over to her. I sit next to her and pick her up, and she falls into my arms.

I hold her underneath her legs and by her back. She buries her face in my shoulder and I feel her breathing into my arm. It kind of tickles. I cross my legs and cradle Natalie in my arms. Her breathing is steady and soft. I kiss her on the head. Her hair is damp and soft.

She stops shivering and I realize how tired I am. I lean up against the cave wall and the stone itches the back of my head and my eye lids get heavy. Natalie wraps her arms around my arm, and sighs. I smile, and fall asleep.

    I jerk awake to the sound of thunder. Natalie is still sleeping in my arms, and my back really hurts. Natalie's skin sticks to mine, and I suddenly don't feel so cold anymore. I look outside the cave and its really dark. I have no idea what time it is.

Those men took my phone, and I have no idea where Tris is, or if she's alive. We need to leave this place, and get to Tris. Then we'll go back to the safe house, and not leave for a long time. Then, we'd be hiding. I'm not running or hiding anymore. We need to take those people out.

I need to find out who's leading this. I need to find out who wants Natalie dead or possibly wants to hold her hostage. I'm not fine with either one. I shift my back so it doesn't hurt anymore, and Natalie wakes up. "Dad?" she says. She sits up in my lap, and I look at her.

    "I'm cold." she says. She gets up from my lap, and stands up away from me. She lights herself on fire, and she closes her eyes. She stops. "That's better." she says yawning. She walks over to the clothes, and holds her hand up to it. She stops, and tosses me my shirt. It's dry.

    "How is this not ashes?" I say standing up, and putting it on. She shrugs her shoulders, and does it to the other clothes. She puts her clothes on, and tosses me my pants. I don't want her to leave, but she wants to. I slip my right leg into my pant leg, and look at Natalie. She's looking at me.  "I don't want to leave!" she shouts. How did she know I was thinking about that? "Are you a mind reader?" I ask pulling my left leg through my pant leg and zipping it up.

    "No. I can just read your facial expressions." she says. I remember when I made Tris promise to not leave, and she left anyways. She left me laying by myself. I don't believe Natalie. I believed Tris, and I'm not gonna fall for that same lie. I nod. "DAD!" she shouts, her voice echoing through out the cave. How did she find all that out, just by my facial expressions? 

Distrust. That's the look I had on my face. "I don't even know where all these men are coming from anyways." she says quieter. She's right. We don't know where all of these men are coming from. Wait. It all comes back to me. "There's this team of people called, 'The Bureaus'. They have been known to kidnap children of all ages and bring them beyond the fence to live there." the doctor's voice rings in my mind.

Those people are men. Those men are the Bureau's. The Bureaus are being sent by someone to kidnap Natalie, a specific girl, to keep her there. There have been other kidnaps, but they've stopped since everybody found out about her powers. They want her. And only her. Somebody knows that she's my daughter. Okay, Peter and Eric are ruled out. Who e

lse could it be? It would be somebody who's wanted revenge. Drew? Molly? No, it can't be Molly. Natalie said it was a man. "I know where they're coming from." I say. She looks down at me as I stand up. "Where?" she says.

    "Out-" I start my sentence, but I remember that if I tell her, she'll know where to turn herself in. "Out where?" she says raising her eye brows. "Never mind." I say. I sit back down, and examine my feet. I have cuts spotting them, and they look really red. I sigh. She grits her teeth.

    "If this is about that stupid thing where you think I'm gonna kill myself, then I'm done. I'll do this by myself." she says. Woah. She's never talked to me like that before. Tris wouldn't allow it, but I'm too shocked to scold her. Her eyes have flames in them. She's really mad.

    "No, you won't." I say. "Oh, so it is about that! I'm ready to leave, Dad! I know I'm gonna go during all this crap because I'm the prey, and I'm being hunted! I'm saying I don't want to leave but if that's the way I'm gonna go, so be it! I've been ready to die since I was thrown in that tank!" she yells, her fingers sprinkling sparks from them.

This is isn't good. She's ready to die. She's expecting herself to die. She doesn't care if she goes this way. No. I don't want to live in a world where Natalie has been erased from it. I stand up. "No! This is not the way you're gonna go! I did not just go all this way to protect you, just to have you ready to die! If I killed myself years ago, you wouldn't be here! So, I am NOT gonna let you miss out on a life you've just begun!" I yell at her.

Her eyes still have flames in them, but the sparks stop. "I have to do this by myself! I can't lose you and Mom in the process of a fight that was meant for me to battle! Mom was already put in the hospital because of me!" she says her eyes filling with tears.

    "I can't have you two leave, so I'm gonna do this by myself while you two are safe from me!" she says. She thinks she's a monster that's terrorizing everybody. She wants to put her existence to an end. She wants to keep herself from us. I'm not ready for her to leave, but she's ready to leave. Tears are welling up in my eyes.

    "You think this is your fault?" I say, my voice cracking. "Yes, I do! Mom could be dead because of me! I don't want to have that guilt of knowing my mother's death was my fault." she says crying.

She doesn't want to go. But she knows she has to go. "It was not your fault! It's that leader's fault! You are not going to leave this world especially when you're not the one who needs to go!" I say. She laughs, her throat gurgling from crying.

    "It's all so simple Dad! If I leave the picture, the whole frame will just disappear!" she says crying harder. She doesn't want to go, but she thinks she has to. "What?" I say. "If I leave, everything will just go away, and nobody would have to get hurt!" she says.

The Bureaus already think she's dead, but they're looking for Tris. They thought, "Oh, well if the girl and the Dad's dead, we'll just kill the rest of the family." I shake my head. "No, it doesn't have to go that way! We can fight back, and nobody will have to die!" I say. She looks at me with cold eyes.

"No." she says. Then, she runs from the cave. I run after her, the rain soaking me. I let her run away from me once, I'm not gonna do it again. Tris did this exact same thing before Natalie was born. I wanted to die too, and I thought she was dead once I saw her.

I don't want to live in a world where there is no such thing as Tris Eaton, or Natalie Eaton. Ever.

I made this chapter kind of dramatic, I know. I didn't want to make it where Natalie wants to kill herself, but I figured that she would have second thoughts on how things were happening. So, she went from thinking, 'I have to keep going' to 'I'm just gonna end this'. It's kind of like where Tris was in Insurgent, but I thought it would be more interesting that way. So, now Natalie wants to end this fight. Don't worry, I'm gonna update it as soon as I can!!! Don't forget to vote and comment! :)