Blue Flames //Divergent Fanfic//

Confessions (Told in Tobias' Perspective)

Chapter 37:

Tobias' Perspective

(A/N: This chapter is for _KatB1013 because she asked me to do Chapter 35 in Tobias' Perspective! I liked the idea a lot, she just asked me when I was in the middle of Chapter 36, and I didn't want to erase it. So, I told her that I would do that chapter for her! Please give her the credit for this chapter, because it was her idea! She is also new to Wattpad, so go follow her!)

    I am speeding. I check how fast I'm going, and see that I'm doing about sixty. The Dauntless roads are still bumpy, and have yet to be fixed. I figured that we hadn't killed all those Bureaus.

Even after we fought back, and burned down the headquarters. I am even more shocked of who is running this. I figured that he would want to get back. Just not twelve years later. "We're running again." says Natalie.

    "I know, sweet heart. I'm sorry you're having to live your life like this." says Tris. "It's hard doing this." she says. I accidentally hit a huge bump, and knock my head on the ceiling. I groan instead of yelping. "It's okay, Mom." says Natalie. I look in the rear view mirror, and see that Natalie is laying her head on Tris' lap. I hear sniffing, which usually leads to crying.

    "No, it's not. You've been shot way too many times and no twelve year old should have to go through this." says Tris. I went through quite a lot of crap when I was twelve. My Mom's screams bouncing off the walls in the Abnegation house.

The scars on my body that I hid from the outside world. I shutter. "Mom...." Natalie starts, but Tris interrupts. "I'm sorry. All your Dad and I ever wanted for you was a normal life. We never wanted you to ever see the things you have seen, and cried the tears you have." she says. I try and jerk the wheel over to avoid another pothole, but I hit it straight on. Tris starts crying.

I hate it when she cries. It makes me want to cry too, but I avoid crying because it makes me tired. I hate seeing her in pain. "Tris......" I start, but she interrupts.

    "I know, I shouldn't be crying. Plus I'm surprised I even have any left." she says. I turn off into the grass, away from the Amity compound so we don't get caught on camera. 

    "Where are we going?" Natalie says. "They haven't shut down cameras in the Amity compound." I say. "Oh." she says. "Which means that we're gonna be in the car a little longer than expected." I say. I hate long car rides. Especially when I'm the one driving. 

    "How long?" she says, annoyed. "About thirty minutes." I say. That was a huge lie. "Okay." she says. Tris has lowered her loud crying into quiet sobs. I glance on the passenger seat, and see Natalie's phone laying there.

Which reminds me. "I was going to give you your phone, but that is apart of your punishment for sneaking off and giving away six hundred dollars without our permission." I  say. I'm waiting for her to try and argue, but it doesn't come. Instead, I get pure silence for a couple of seconds.

    "Fine." she says. Wow, last time we took her phone, she argued and begged for us to give it back. She would only argue for about five minutes, then beg for it. Somethings up with her. She was acting weird at the hospital when the doctor was telling us about the healing serum.

    "We're sorry, but there's consequences for everything." I say. "I know...." she says. There is pure silence for a good five minutes before I get frustrated for not knowing what's been up with her lately. She didn't tell me about that boy raping her, she snuck off to a cliff, and only God knows what else. I need to know what shes been hiding.

    "Natalie, I don't believe that you gave that money to the factionless." I say plainly. I look in the rear view mirror, and see that Tris has fallen asleep and that Natalie is blushing. She knows something. "Why would you say that?" she says normally. Please, I have seen her lie and it would work on me, if I didn't know her so well.

     "Because, you are an excellent liar. And I don't say that as a compliment. I have seen you tell a bold faced lie, and you were quite good at it." I say. She stays quiet for a couple of seconds before she stares back into the mirror at me.

    "I have done that, but that doesn't mean I didn't give it to the factionless." she says. She is good. But, she's lying to me. She looks away, and stares at the ceiling. She always looks away from me when she's lying. Sometimes she bites her lip too, but I've told her to stop it. She still does it though. "See, you're telling one right now." I say.

She is quiet again, probably thinking of what to say. "Dad, I gave it to the factionless." she says. "What did you do with that money?" I say. "Gave it to the factionless." she says. She's not going to break until I get serious. "What did you do with it?" I say annoyed.

    "Gave it to the factionless." she repeats. Geez! "Natalie Bea Eaton!" I yell. I check in the mirror to make sure I didn't wake Tris up. "What did you do with it?" I say a little calmer. She stops for a second, and stares at the cloud of air between us.

Her face turns red, and she squints her eyes. Shes about to blow. "I SAVED YOUR BUTT IS WHAT I DID WITH IT!" she screams. She screamed louder than I did, so it woke Tris up. "Why are you yelling at your Dad?" she says. What is she talking about? Saved me?

    "What?" I say. "I PAID FOR THAT HEALING SERUM! I SAVED YOUR LIFE IS WHAT I DID!" she yells. My eyes go wide, and I slam on the brakes. She what? I can't believe it was her that saved my life. I thought anybody who needed healing got it for free.

I guess I was wrong. I step out of the car, and open the back door. I pull Natalie out, and set her gently on the grass. I realize that tears are pushing their way out onto my face. Tris steps out, and stands next to me. Sparks are coming from her fingers, and all I can do is stare at her.

    "I did it for you guys. I knew that you had to stash all of the money away and you couldn't pay for it, so I did." she finally says. We did have to stash the money, but if I had known that the serum cost money, I would have asked to pull some out of the safe to pay for it instead of her. Wind blows, making my wet face cold.

Natalie's hair blows into her face, and she pulls it away. She stares into my eyes, and I feel as if she stares at me too long, I will also burst into flames. "I don't know what I'd do if it was my fault that you two died. I couldn't live without my parents. It was my fault we are all in this mess, so I paid the price to keep you here because I can't live without you." she says.

Tris starts bawling her eyes out, while I just stand there trying to process what she is saying. Natalie starts to cry too, and now we are all crying. She looks away. "I did it because I love you." she says. My heart is being teared to pieces because this is one of the most meaningful things she has said.  It feels like she is ripping layer after layer of sensitivity in me, and is about to reach my breaking point.

     "I was lying because I didn't want you to have to know that I had this much guilt." she says.  "I would give my life for you guys, and six hundred doesn't even cover half of how much I'd pay to keep you alive." she says. Just a couple more layers left...... 

    "You would have done it for me, and you have before so I was on the other side of the story this time." she says. And I have reached my breaking point. I can only stare at her for so long without feeling like I'm going to burst into flames. 

    "Okay, I've told you it was me. Can we leave now?" she says, wiping her face. "Natalie...." Tris whispers. She runs over to Natalie, and hugs her. She cries hard into her shoulder, and I continue to stare at her. I hear Tris saying something to her, but don't process it.

She lets go of her, and kisses her on the forehead. I walk over to her in two swift steps, and pull her into my arms, off of the ground. I hold the back of her head, and she wraps her arms around my neck.

I can't find anything else to say except, "Thank you. I love you." I whisper it in her ear as she says back, "I love you too."

                                                             My breaking point.

OH MY GOSH THAT WAS SO SWEET!!!!!!! I THINK I'M GONNA CRY! I NEED SOME TISSUES! *sniff* You can thank _KatB1013 for this amazing chapter! Without her idea to make it in Tobias' perspective, I probably wouldn't have wrote such a heart-wrenching chapter! (I mean that in the good way!) I hope you liked it, like I said please give _KatB1013 the credit for this chapter!!!! Don't forget to vote and comment! :)