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chapter 20 - A shattered picture

Hannah's POV

"A picture can say a thousand words"... So can someone's face.

I've felt heartbreak myself, I know the feelings... emotions... now I have seen it first hand...

I miss him... so much...

Clay...

Clay's POV

"Hey Hannah, I need to grab my science book before we leave"

"we can't forget science hey helmet... I'll come with you"

I looked at Hannah, she grinned at me with her cheeky sarcastic smile... she's beautiful...

As I opened my locker I noticed something... what is that? A picture... I picked it up.

What if it's bad...? I don't want Hannah getting upset again... was hard enough telling her about the picture of us I was sent...

I had to look... I needed to know what it was... I turned the picture over...

Is that Ha...?

What... is this?

I couldn't even think about what I was seeing...

My stomach turned... it felt like something was sinking and I couldn't stop it...

I stood there in shock... staring at the picture.

Hannah & Zack.... holding hands... is this a joke?

"Clay... you ok? What is It?"

I turned and looked at Hannah... I just stared at her... my eyes must look as numb as I feel...

I can see the fear in her eyes...

I flipped the picture over... still looking into her eyes...

She glanced down... I could see her pupils dilate... she looked straight back at me... her face filled with Shock...

At that point I felt like nothing... my head dropped...

"Clay... I can explain..."

Hannah sounded different... worried... scared...

I looked up and nodded slightly...

"What is this Hannah...? You... Zack? Is this real or has someone made this....?"

She went quiet... looking down... I knew right then it was true...

"Zack Dempsey...?" I was so confused...

"Clay... it was a long time ago... I need to explain... please don't think I like him"

Now it was my time to go quiet... do i really know Hannah? Zack Dempsey...? When was this...?

" Hannah... I'm confused! No... i don't think you like him still. I just don't understand"

The truth was I didn't know what to think... I just know the sight of that photo makes me feel sick... Did she love him?

Hannah's POV

That afternoon wasn't full of our usual Hannah and Clay quirky conversations... smiles or holding hands...

It was different...

Every time I looked at clay I hated myself that I hadn't told him... that I've hurt him again... his face when he saw that picture nearly killed me...