13 reasons Why Not

Chapter 14 - Friday Morning...

("Helmet look at that... "

We both stood there staring at the Hudson River... It was beautiful... as I imagined... My perfect place with my perfect guy...

Clay put his arm around me... gazing at the Brooklyn bridge... we had done it... we were free...

Clay turned to me... looked into my eyes... and gently went to kiss me....

I closed my eyes...

A shrieking siren rang in my ears.... and bang...)

I woke up in a cold sweat...

Clay...!!

I need Clay...

He's not here... I hate when he is not here...

The darkness surrounded me... funny how your own senses can deceive you... even in your own bedroom...

Since receiving the trial date I have been having the most random dreams... some good, some bad... all I know is I can't wait for it to be over...

I can't wait for tomorrow to be over...

Sleep Hannah... you need sleep...

I lay there thinking of Helmet... his smile... the way he looks after me... he's changed... he is still the kind, soft, sweet Clay Jenson, but he has something else about him now, he makes me feel safe....

Clay's POV

Friday... I'd like to say any normal Friday...

To be honest I can't remember our last normal day... wait I can...

Me and Miss Baker's bike ride... that was one of the best days of my life, she looked beautiful...

Hannah I need to message her...

C - Hey... how are you Miss. Baker? Hope you're ok, did you sleep ok? Xx

........

She must be asleep.

"Clay... you up honey...?"

"Yeah I'm up mom..."

"Breakfast 10 minutes... we need to be at the bakers for 10!"

"Ok mom... "

I sat on my bed... Hannah's sweater next to my pillow... made me smile...

My head turned to the black suit hanging on my door... a reminder of the day ahead...

Hannah's POV

My eyes opened... it was sunny...

I glanced at my phone...

1 new message - Helmet

I instantly smiled... he always thinks of me...

H - Hey Helmet... I'm ok I guess... had the weirdest dream! How are you?? Can't wait to see you xx

As I sent the message my eyes noticed the day... for two minutes I'd forgotten what day it was... Friday! Funny how that happens when you wake up... or maybe it's just me.

Like I said last night... I want today to be over... funny after everything I still feel like this...

I guess you were right Hannah... you still have so much love in you...

This being the case, today I have mixed emotions... unanswered questions... who done this...?

More than anything... a final farewell...

What if this had been mine...?

"Hannah... you up...?"

"Yeah Dad... getting sorted..."