Mrs All American - luke

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L U K E

Two weeks.

It's been two weeks since I've seen or heard from Sam. I don't want to say that I'm going insane because well, I am. I haven't left the house in these past two weeks. I've told the boys I haven't been feeling well and they know better, so they just leave me alone. Do I feel guilty for what I did? Hell no. Do I feel guilty for possibly hurting Sam's feelings? Maybe.

The book she's let me borrow is sitting at the end of my bed. I'm actually almost done with it. I started reading it two hours ago and then set it down when I found myself thinking about Sam instead. I hope it doesn't make me sound like a little bitch, but the book itself has made me pretty sad and I can see why Sam loves it so much. I come up with two reasons to why she loves it so much. One: It's such an honest book. You're not always going to have your happy ending and sometimes that's okay. Two: Augustus Waters is exactly the kind of boyfriend every girl should have minus the part where he's sick, of course.

Oh my god, what is this fucking girl doing to me?

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

I can't help myself and I reach for the book, opening it up to the page I left off. I only have about fifteen pages left. I could be doing something else, but here I am, reading a goddamn book that this girl, who's probably plotting to kill me right now, has let me borrow.

What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to say? Things happen. It's not my fault that her friend got drunk and then threw herself on me. I wasn't going to stop her. I mean, I was mad at Sam for leaving me for her stupid ex. I'm a little more mad than I'm willing to admit.

A knock on the door makes me jump and I set the book down next to me, saving my spot. "Come in," I call as I lean back on the mattress. I pull my hoodie over my head and sink into my sheets.

"Dude, you gotta stop being such a pussy and tell us what's going on," Calum says as he enters my room, Ashton and Michael follow soon after. They all come and sit across me on the bed.

"It's about Sam, I call it," Michael states as he looks down at a video game he's playing on his DS and I want to kick him off the bed.

"Seriously, man? What's this girl doing to you?" Ashton jokes and I flip him off as I bring the sheets closer to my face.

"More like, what did you do?" Calum asks me and gives me a stern look.

"Holy fuck, this girl has you reading books, too," Ashton laughs and grabs the book carelessly.

"Don't lose my spot!" I whine and reach for the book but he holds his hand back, looking at it. My eyes widen when I realize how fucking ridiculous I'm being.

"What happened now?" Calum asks me as Ashton and Michael begin to look at the book together but I know for a fact they're listening. I want them to stop touching the book. It's Sam's book and she let me borrow it.

"I made out with her friend Becca," I say and they all gasp, looking at me.

"Luke Robert Hemmings, the last thing we needed was for you to homewreck their beautiful friendship," Michael scolds me and shakes his head, looking down at his video game.

"Why did you do that?" Ashton asks, eyes wide and eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"Because! She pissed me off!" I groan and cross my arms over my chest. Even thinking about what happened makes me feel the same anger I felt two weeks ago. Two weeks ago, I wouldn't admit it, but I can't lie to my best friends.

"Okay, start from the beginning because now you're just all over the fucking place," Calum tells me and I roll my eyes at him.

"I was hanging out with her, right? And then she tells me she has to go and meet with her ex boyfriend so she ditched me and so I made out with her friend and Sam walked in on it," I tell them and once again, they all stare at me.