The single dad || phan

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Dan's POV

The house was clean after a half hour clean, Phil works fast when he's motivated I guess. I think Phil might have cleaned up so fast so he had no time to think about today, and I don't blame him.

*authors note, as I was writing this P!ATD's song 'but it's better if you do' came on. It's a good song if you haven't heard it :) okay sorry back to the story now*

We had finally finished cleaning and then Phil looked at me and broke down into tears so I wrapped him into an embrace while he held the back of my shirt and wept, leaving a wet patch on the shoulder, but I didn't mind. Then I heard Phil speak, " Dan..." Phil said almost out of breath, "help..." and with that Phil collapsed into my arms, falling downwards. I pulled him back up and held him tight so he wouldn't fall and whispered into his ear.

" I know you won't remember this but it will probably calm your conscience down a bit. It's going to be okay, Phil. You are okay. You have an amazing daughter and you have me and we have days to look forward to like your next birthday, which I'm planning something for by the way and Valentine's Day, and Christmas..." then Phil's eyes began to flutter open " and I want you to know you mean the world to me and I love you okay and I won't leave you, I can be your new rock, I can help you through all this...okay"

I felt Phil nod in my shoulder. "I love you too" Phil replied, his voice husky. Then the door opened and a lady walked in, who looked like she had been crying. It was probably PJ's mum.

"Phil..." the woman said and Phil let go of me and gave her a hug.

"How are you doing?" Phil asked as he pulled away.

"That's a question I don't want to answer anymore. So many people have asked me Phil, asked me how I'm doing, saying they understand... they don't... it hurts so much to lose my baby boy... he was such a good boy..." PJ's mum replied.

"It will be okay, I promise, I'm always here if you need me, you know..." Phil smiled.

"Thank you Phil, it seems like I've not been here in so long...it's such a shame it's now that I'm here"

"I've not been here in over a month before today, I got a few things after it happened but I couldn't stay here, for both physical and mental health reasons. I can show you to his room if you want to go in, but I don't know how messy it is, I haven't been in there..."

"That would be great Phil" she smiled. "And also, who is this cutie?" She said as she motioned to Lucy.

"Oh..." Phil replied, probably not knowing what to say, as he does a lot.

"That's our daughter" I replied and the woman looked at me then smiled.

"You know he's like a son to me so you better not hurt him, he's the only one I have left now, so I'm a big mamma bear and I will hurt you if you do" she said a tear rolling down her face.

"Don't worry, I will look after him, I promise you that" I smiled at her and gave her a tissue. "I'm sorry about your son, he was a patient of mine after the incident... I'm sorry I couldn't save him" I added and I felt a tear run down my face.

She hugged me. "It's okay, he was always a difficult one" she said chuckling a little as she pulled away.

"He's Dan by the way..." Phil said, "and that's Lucy"

"So are you two a thing then?" She questioned.

"Yeah" Phil replied and smiled. He was adorable.

"Well congrats you two! And Phil... this is the last time I'm gonna ask you... did you and PJ ever have an... intimate... relationship?"

Phil's face went bright red.

"Oh...Urm...maybe once but like it was like five years ago...yeah...nothing after that though I promise..." Phil was like a tomato.

The woman laughed. "Phil... you know I already knew right? He told me... he didn't say who it was but with the timing of things I kind of assumed it was you."

"Oh... okay... well... PJs room is the first one down there" Phil said pointing down the hall.

"Okay thank you Phil" she smiled.

She walked down the hall and went in his room.

"So, Philly... never told me about this" I laughed.

Phil became a darker shade of red.

"I honestly don't really remember much of it... we were both very drunk and lonely I guess so you know...it happened but then after that we didn't really speak about it other than the morning where we were both really awkward and decided to never speak about it again and that it didn't mean anything...it was just a hook up I guess..."

"Fair enough" I laughed and Phil joined in.

Quite a lot of people came to the house after that and it was an ensemble of greetings, tears and memories until the cars came.

We all climbed into the cars and set off. Phil's head on my shoulder on the way there and Lucy in my arms and I had my hand on Phil's thigh.