The single dad || phan

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Lucy's POV

Did I do something wrong? What if I triggered something? I feel so bad but my parents can help him right. Like dad is a doctor and pa is a therapist, his therapist in fact.

Dad had taken him into his and pa's room because that's where pa was and he needed to speak to him. Dad came back into the room. "Is he okay?" I ask, aware of the tears rolling down my face.

My dad wiped the tears. "He will be okay, but you know it gets easier feeling with it over time. The first time it happened at home with your pa he got up with you and it happened with you in his arms but he put you down and shouts me and I literally didn't stop tending to him but now I know he's okay his brain just needs to chill its beans" he laughed at the end part and kissed my head.

"Was it my fault?" I cried out.

" Lucy sit down" I did and he knelt in front of me holding my hands, " it's not your fault okay, both him and your pa have been broken, physically and mentally leaving scars, but from what your pa has told me what happened to Jake didn't cause the mental health problems it just added to them. Also, I know what I'm saying medically but I've never really been through the process of pregnancy with someone but you need to chillax a bit and I know it's hard because your hormones are crazy as fuck, oops, because it won't be good for the baby"

"Okay... Wait... am I adopted?"

" oh my god, no you aren't you were produced by me and I'm not going into detail about the rest of it"

"Did you like do that thing, get a surrogate?" My dad shook his head.

" then what then? " why had I never asked about this till now?

"Guess I'm telling you this now then... Okay so I didn't know about you until you were a few month old... Your mum never told me... To be fair I hardly knew her... But we hooked up at some point baring in mind I was still in the closet... And you were left at my doorstep with a letter to me and another to you. The one to me explained that you were mine and also why she had decided to commit suicide... From what she wrote it was post natal depression because she tried to... Kill you... By drowning you... Then she felt really bad about it so she hung herself..." He looked like that was hard for him to tell me. It was a lot to take in.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I cried. I didnt mean to cry, but I did.

"It never felt like the right time" he smiled weakly.

" so I have a bunch of other family that I've never known? "

"They don't like me very much but I have your, urm, grandma's address if you want to meet them... And know more about your mum or something ..." A tear rolled down his face.

"Dad, what's wrong?"

" please don't hate me or leave me or prefer them over us... "

I smiled. "How could I ever do that dad. You and pa are the only family I really have" I hugged him.

Then Jake walked in.

"Hey, sorry about that luce" he said like nothing happened.

I let go of my dad and walked over to Jake and gave him a hug.

"I love you so much" he whispered.

"I love you too"

Then we stayed there for a while soaking in the others tears and comforting the other.