Let's go back to when this story started.
PJ's POV
I picked up my phone and dialled Chris's number.
He answered almost immediately. Chris is one of my friends. But he was the kind of friend who I have hooked up with a few times due to loneliness and desperation with the addition of intoxication.
"Hey peej, what's up?" Chris said sounding a little tired.
"Hey Chris, i was wondering if you could drive me somewhere, is this a bad time?" I felt bad because he seemed tired.
"Yeah, I'd do anything for you, you know that, and I've just woken up so I probs seem a bit off" he laughed slightly.
"Why have you only just woken up, it's like 3pm" I giggled.
"I was busy last night, don't judge me, I'll be at yours in ten, love youuuuu"
"Bye Chris" I said then hung up.
Today was important for me. I had told Phil a while back that I liked him, a few years ago, but we never really spoke about it. I needed to tell him, to show him how much he meant to me. I was in love with Phil. Undeniably in love. I couldn't shake it. Every minute I am with Phil he makes me happier. I have so many good memories with him. And I've tried to love others and have had a few relationships but none of the people I am with can be compared to Phil in any way. I think he feels something towards me too. We talk about having kids and getting married, and whenever I'm with someone he seems a bit jealous, and he just doesn't look for people to be with, he said he didn't want to.
Sooner or later Chris pulled up outside and I climbed into his car with a bag.
"Hey peej, where shall it be today?" Chris said with a smile on his face.
"The park, but the nice one"
"On it" Chris said and started his car and drive. There was silence for a minute. "Oh and just wondering, what are you doing?"
"I'm — well, remember a while back when you helped me stop feeling upset about Phil?" I started.
He nodded and smiled, "Yeah, I remember that"
"Well, I never really got over him and I think he feels the same about me now, so I need to show him what he means to me" I said with a smile, thinking about Phil.
"Seriously? I can't believe you!" Chris said sounding annoyed.
"What? What have I done?!" I said confused.
"You let that idiot control your life! You could do so much better than him PJ! What about me peej? Why couldn't you have chosen me? I love you and you have to be stupid not to know that. We could be so great together. We could live a life together and be happy and get married and have kids if you want to, all you have to do is choose me!" He cried.
I felt bad. I didn't mean to hurt him.
"Chris... I'm sorry, you have to believe me"
"Just get out, the park is down the street." I had never seen him like this
"Chris, please can we talk about this..." I said placing my hand on his. He pushed me away.
"I swear to god if you don't get out of this car right now I will drive the fucking car into that house" he said, and I believed him.
"Fine, I'll get out!" I said and started to get out.
"You know peej, I always knew Phil would cause this, cause you to do this to yourself. And I swear to god I will never forgive him for doing this to you! Never. I and really hope you realise that he is messing with your emotions PJ! Even though I am so pissed off with you for letting him do this to you, I still care, so if you need me, call me, okay?"
I started to cry slightly. "Chris.."
"I have to go" he said and sped off.
I felt broken. I knew his words were true. But I needed to try. So I did. I set up all I needed to set up and I walked back home.
Surely enough Phil was there. His usual cheery self.
"Hey Phil, can we go to the park? We haven't been in ages!" I said pulling him up.
"Alright, But you are driving" Phil laughed and put his coat on and put his phone in his bag and his bag over his shoulder.
After a few minutes of driving Ed Sheeran came on and Phil and I started to sing.
"I'm gonna pick up the pieces
And build a Lego house
When things go wrong we can knock it down
My three words have two meanings
There's one thing on my mind, it's all for you
And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got ya to keep me warm
And if you're broken I'll mend ya
And keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now
I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down
And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now
I'm out of sight, I'm-"
I saw a bright white light and then I hit my head. I looked at Phil and then there was darkness flooding over my vision—
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The single dad || phan
Fiksi Penggemar[completed] Daniel Howell is a single dad of a 6 month old named Lucy. After her mother's death, Dan got left with her, even though he did not know he had a child in the first place. Phil is a patient at the hospital Dan works at...
