The Journal

Chapter 2 : Bully

Chapter 2

The next day...
  
Riker POV

I couldn't get any sleep last night. All I could think about was what if someone found my journal!?

My mom doesn't know why I'm freaking out so much, but I can't tell her! She can't know that I wrote about cutting and suicide! She'd freak out for sure!

I told her I was freaking out because I wrote about a girl I liked and I didn't want her to know.

I especially didn't want a teacher to find it, because then they'd definitely tell my parents.

The person I didn't want to find it the most was my bully. If he finds it, I'm toast.

I get bullied pretty much every day. My bully's name is Wyatt, and he's a football player. He doesn't really hurt me or anything, but he intimidates me and calls me mean names.

He also got my phone number somehow, and sometimes he texts me mean stuff.

But whatever. I just hope my journal is in my locker.

Kelsey POV

Dear Journal,

I spent lunch in the boys bathroom today. I have this bully and his name is Wyatt. He called me pathetic and stupid and a few other things I'm not going to repeat.

Normally I just try to forget about the things he says, but I just feel like they're true! I failed my math test today! I'm stupid. It's true.

I'm getting scared what my grades are going to be for my report card. Mom will just tell me to try harder, but dad will punish me if any of my grades are below an 80. I think most of them are above 80, except I'm not so sure about math...

So I locked myself in a bathroom stall and ate my lunch in there. Wyatt and some of his football friends followed me in there and pounded on the stall door for a while. But I didn't let them in, and they eventually left. I need to find a new hiding spot...

My day gets worse though. When I got home, mom yelled at me and Rocky because we forgot to do our chores last night.

I got my laptop taken away for a few days because of that.

And while I was in the shower, Rocky went snooping through my backpack and found my math test from today. And he totally told on me! He showed it to mom and dad! And it was super embarrassing trying to explain my grade of 65. Dad was really disappointed in me.

It feels like all I ever do is disappoint people. They would probably be so much happier if I was just gone. Then they wouldn't have to deal with me.

Rocky could have his own room and he could be the big brother instead of me.

I'm just so sick of everything...

Well I have to go because mom said it's time for bed.

-R

I started trying to think of people I knew who had names that started with R. I couldn't really think of any. So I probably don't know whoever wrote this.

But that's going to make it harder to try to find him.

I wonder if he even knows he lost his journal.

I don't even know how I should try to find him. I guess I should read more of his journal and look for clues. I know he has siblings and he gets bullied. But I don't know anything about how he looks.

I don't even know if he's in my grade.

I don't know how I'm going to find him...

Later...

Riker POV

"Riker!"

I jumped. Everyone was staring at me, and I felt something dripping off my face.

"You fell asleep in your lunch," Rocky said, laughing at me.

I grabbed a few napkins and went to the bathroom. I had mac and cheese all over my face. Once I was all cleaned up, I went back to the table.

"Riker, why are you so tired, honey?" Mom asked.

"I didn't sleep last night."

"Why not?"

"I'm too stressed out about my journal," I said, quietly.

"Oh, Riker... It's probably just in your locker," mom said.

I sighed. I know it's probably just in my locker, but I can't help but be super anxious about it.

"Can I be excused? I'm not hungry," I said, pushing my plate away from me.

"Yes, Riker," mom said.

I got up and went to my room. I flopped down on my bed. I almost feel kind of sick to my stomach because of my journal.

I pulled a blanket over myself and decided to sleep because I was exhausted.