Chapter 18
Later...
Riker POV
I went straight home after class. I didn't stick around by Kelsey's locker. I just wanted to be alone.
When I got home, mom called me into the kitchen.
"How was school, honey?"
"Fine..."
"Do you want a snack? I baked some brownies today."
"No, I'm not hungry... I'm going to go upstairs and do my homework."
"Ok."
I went upstairs and took my journal out of my bag. I hid it inside of my dresser. I'm never taking it out of this room again.
I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I took the razor blade out of my phone case, and pulled my sleeves up.
I pushed the blade against my wrist and made a slice. I winced a little in pain.
I wasn't feeling any better from that cut, so I did it again. And again. And again.
But it wasn't making me feel any better. So I just kept going.
I accidentally pressed down too hard on one, and it really hurt. It wasn't helping me feel better, and it was just hurting a lot, so I put my blade away. I turned the faucet on and rinsed my wrists off. They burned so bad.
All of a sudden, there was a knock at the door.
"Riker?"
It was Ross. Everyone was getting home from school. I guess I spent longer in here than I thought.
"Um... What?" I asked.
"I need to pee, and Rocky's in the bathroom downstairs. Hurry up!"
"I'll be out in a minute."
I checked my wrists to make sure they weren't bleeding, and then pulled my sleeves down. And then I left the bathroom and went back to my room.
I flopped down on my bed and sighed. My wrists hurt, and now I feel even more miserable.
"Riker."
I turned and saw Ryland in my doorway.
"What?"
"Mom says you need to help me with my homework."
I sighed. I don't feel like it.
"Tell mom I don't feel good."
"Ok..."
He left. I groaned and pulled a pillow over my head.
A minute later, I felt my bed dip down, and I was positive it was mom.
"Ryland said you don't feel well. Is that true?" Mom asked.
"Yes," I mumbled.
"Is that why you weren't hungry for a snack?"
"Yes."
"What doesn't feel good?"
"My head. It hurts."
"Do you want me to get you some medicine?"
"No. I just need to take a nap."
"Ok, honey. I'll have someone wake you up for dinner, ok?"
"Ok..."
Mom left. I decided to take a nap. Maybe I'll feel better when I wake up...
Later...
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The Journal
FanfictionWhen Kelsey finds a journal at school, she takes it home to read it. The more she reads it, the more she falls in love with the owner of it. She wants to find out who it is and fast, because his journal is full of thoughts of suicide.
