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Life itself is hard as it is.
It becomes even harder when you're left alone to care for your younger sister.
Shailene will do whatever it takes to properly provide for her sister. And the need to do so places her in a difficult l...
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THE EXOTIC DANCER CHAPTER 010 ✔ "Im Not Strong"
•T U E S D A Y M O R N I N G•
Not making it home in time to help Lucy with her homework and tuck her into bed made me feel like i'm failing. I know that's an unfair thought and that i do my best. I know that i work hard but i cant help but feeling as if i failed her when i cannot even get small things like this done.
I dont want her to ever feel neglected.
There are so many things i should be doing with her as her sister that i never had time for. Whenever i try to make time for those things something always manages to come up.
I know that without my job and me working that me and Lucy would be out on the streets but sadly that's not enough to make me feel completely better about the situation. I want to be perfect for her even though i know perfection does not exist.
Im not her mother, and she knows that. I hate trying to be or act as if im mom because im not. Its not my place to replace her spot in Lucy's life. But either way, Lucy is my kid, and i just want her to have a happy life.
I worry that im not providing that to her.
I had to ask Mary to watch over her again last night since i wouldn't have been back when i had planned.
Another late night under my belt...
Late nights have become a normality around here. There is no way around them, its just the way things are.
Some people in my situation would say stuff like they never thought life would come to this.
Having no time to where work because the base of life.
But me?
I didn't expect much different.
Hope is different from expectations.
I had hoped for more that's true. I wanted more for me and Lucy but i didn't expect more.
Why would i?
This was life, this is what i had always known.
How would i manage to get out of a life like this? A young girl left to take care of a smaller girl. There were not many options for us and nobody in their right minds would look at us and think we would become something.
