"Welcome to Allure"
Life itself is hard as it is.
It becomes even harder when you're left alone to care for your younger sister.
Shailene will do whatever it takes to properly provide for her sister. And the need to do so places her in a difficult l...
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THE EXOTIC DANCER CHAPTER 035✔ "Better Off"
Once within the safety of my room i take a deep breath, the door closed shut behind me while all of today's visitors are on their way home. All except for the unawakened one who now finds himself sleeping upon my couch wrapped up with blankets and one of my jackets under his head.
I look up to see Lucy shuffle around in her sleep and in that moment i know she is definitely awake. Lucy may not know this but over time and having to share a room with her my entire life i have realized that when actually sleeping she hardly moves an inch.
It's a bit unsettling.
She doesn't have a specific position she lays in, it seems to interchange a lot but despite whatever position the child sleeps in she doesn't startle much. She lays still, with her hands clasped together most of the time.
Which only makes things more unsettling to me when she decides to sleep on her back, she looks like she is dead. All she would need is less color to her skin and flowers within those clasped hands.
Now i know she is pretending, but nevertheless i think we have to talk so her pretend sleeping state isn't going to last much longer.
I lean down to the floor and grab one of her shoes, which is definitely not wear it is supposed to be. Tossing it through the air and upon her torso.
She shoots up instantly, crying out in pain which i also know is fake.
"Don't be so dramatic." I exclaim, making my way to my own bed beside her. I fall back upon it, pulling my legs up to wrap my arms around them. "We need to talk kiddo."
"I'm too sleepy Shay, can we do this another time." She suggests.
I shake my head in reply. "No can do Luce. Sadly you are not old enough to be in charge of scheduling." I say jokingly.
I watch her roll her eyes and although i'm not usually one to take the attitude i know she has i let it slide this time knowing that she is upset, or at least she was.
"Look, if it's about that i said earlier, im sorry." She apologizes before looking away. No longer wanting to make eye contact with me.
My ring finger glides up and down the blanket on my bed as i think of what direction i should take this conversation in. I know she is sorry for what she said but that doesnt mean we don't have to talk about it, we do.
"What i did back then... i'm sorry for that Lucy. I was just trying to look out for us and i know at times it went father than i would have ever has like it to go but i didn't see any other options then. I was just a kid and i swear to you i was doing the best i could for us. I know my choices hurt you, believe me they hurt me too but i can't change the things i've done. Just please understand i did them for you. Because i needed you to be okay."
