The Pieces of You

November 28th, 2017

It was
A whole year ago
When I was
Happier than I've ever been.
An entire year ago
Today.
Do you remember that day?
Because I do.
I remember that day like it was yesterday.
It plays in my head all the time
Because it was the best thing that ever happened to me.
The day we started dating.

Do you remember that?
Do you remember how much you used to tell me you loved me,
Or how you told me how important I was to you?
You told me I was your world
And now
I'm just a fragment of it.

You told me I was your everything
Now,
I'm nothing more than a meaningless person.

You told me you couldn't live without me
But,
You seem to be doing just fine now.

That day was the happiest day of my life.
I never loved someone the way I loved you.
I poured my entire heart out to you.
I gave you everything I had,
And do you remember what you did with it?
You took it from me
And crushed it
In your hand,
And there was nothing I could do
Except sit there
And watch
As the pieces of my heart
Seeped out from between your fingers
And trickled down
Onto the ground,
And no matter how hard I tried
I couldn't pick those pieces back up.
It was like they were glued down to the ground,
And you stood there and watched,
As I pathetically tried to pick them back up.
No matter what I did nothing lifted them up from the cold hard ground,
And thats where they stayed.
That's where they've been all this time.

I gave you my everything,
And you threw it away,
And I didn't have the strength
To pick it back up.

Sometimes I still wonder
What it would be like if you weren't a total jerk,
And we were still together.

When our relationship first started
It was like how a flower blooms
Right after the cold winter.
It was wonderful
I had never been so happy in all my life,
But eventually
You stopped caring for me,
Out of nowhere,
And for the longest time I thought I had done something,
But I didn't,
It was just you.
You stopped loving me
But
I can't help to wonder,
What if you didn't,
What if you still loved me?

If you did then it would be a miracle.
You're not that kind of person.
You don't love people for very long.
I know that now,
Now that it's too late.

I have to ask,
Do you remember any of this?
Or is it just a hazy memory?
Because one year ago today
Was when my entire life changed,
But I think this date
Means absolutely nothing to you.
I don't think you even remember
Except,
Weren't you the one who said
This date will always hold a special place in your heart?
Yeah.
You did,
And you also said you would love me forever,
But things change.
You changed.
So I suppose now this date is meaningless to you.
And so am I.

~R.L.

11/28/18