𝟓𝐬𝐨𝐬 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐕𝐨𝐥.𝟏

Miracle Baby (Ashton Irwin Angst/Fluff Imagine)

Summary: After (Y/N) and Ashton break up, she finds out that she is pregnant with his baby. Something that flips her life upside down in the course of the next few months. 
Based on Angst Prompt #36: "I... I think I might be pregnant." 
(TW: Mention of Infertility / Mention of Abortion / Pregnancy/ Birth)
(Request: FunnyFangirl95) (Words: 4.4k)

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"(Y/N), are you ok?" My assistant asks me as she sees me lose my step. I shake my head no, so she rushes towards me to support me. She helps me sit on the nearest chair as my eyes get heavy and I feel my knees weaken. 
"Do you want me to bring you anything?" She asks me, kneeling down in front of me. 
"Can you bring me some water, please?" I ask, my voice a bit weak. She nods and gets up, moving to the little fridge in the office. 
I haven't been feeling well for a while now; ever since my breakup with Ashton, I have been feeling sick, dizzy, awful. This breakup has taken a toll on me, my whole body in mourning along with me. But this was the best solution for both of us; there was so much love between us, everything was perfect. But we wanted things that couldn't happen, we wanted things that were almost impossible. So I decided to let him go, let him have everything his heart would ever crave. 

But just because of that, it doesn't mean that things are easy for me. For more than 2 months now, I've been crying myself to sleep every night, my body refuses to save any bit of energy no matter how long I sleep, I am completely repulsed by food of any kind, my stomach twitches at the thought of it. 
"Here. Do you need anything else? Should I call Ashton?" She asks. She takes a cringed expression as she realizes what she said, flinching away from me a little as I take a sip of water.
"I am so sorry. I didn't realize what I said, I am so used to you two being together that I..." She begins rumbling but I motion her to just brush it off. Honestly, I simply forget that he won't be home when I get back, sometimes. 
"It's fine, really." I try to assure her, closing my eyes to concentrate on feeling better.
"Uh... Should I call the studio and tell them to reschedule?" She asks me and I shake my head no.
"We will be going in a minute. I just haven't eaten yet, and I got a bit dizzy, don't worry." I smile at her.
"Ok, I will drive us so you can eat, ok?" She suggests, moving to pick up the equipment for the shoot.
"Thanks." I smile at her, taking a deep breath as I try to get up. 

While my assistant drives us to the studio, I munch on my bagel while I scroll through my emails. I haven't been too focused on my work lately, so now a big pile of unsolved stuff waits for me. I archive the email before I move to the next one, humming as I finish my food. 
"The pictures you took on the last shot came out really great. I am proud of you." I compliment her; her face turns glowing, her smile almost reaching her ears.
"Really?" She asks, her voice cracking a bit. 
"Yeah, congratulations." I say, turning back on my phone. 
But before I can read the email, I feel my stomach twisting, all of the food I just had crawling back up my throat. 
I gag as I reach for the bag from the bakery, nudging my assistant to pull over. 
"Oh, God." She gasps, stopping the car. I open the door and get out, leaning over the pavement as I throw up. My assistant rushes to me once more, pulling my hair in a pony. 
"I am not that horrible at driving, am I?" She asks as I stop hurling. I turn to look at her and smile weakly. 
"I am calling the studio to reschedule, you can't take photos when you are like that. Maybe you should go to the doctor. You must have the flu or something." She mumbles, reaching in her pocket for her phone. I grab her wrist to stop her. 
"No. You'll go to the studio and take pictures. You are capable enough, I trust you. Just... drive me somewhere, will you?" I sigh and she nods. 

I haven't been to this house for a long time, but I still remember every little detail of it. As my assistant pulls up in front of it, I feel my stomach tighten up. 
"Are you sure about this?" She asks me and I nod. 
"Go, take some amazing pictures, and leave the car in my parking spot in the office. I have spares for it so don't worry about the keys. And I will be fine, I'll take a cab. See you tomorrow." I say as I open the door to get out. 
"I will call you if I need anything. Good luck." She says and I smile. 
I watch her drive off before I walk to the front door. My stomach hasn't ease yet, and it only gets worse as I press the bell. 
I take a deep breath and try to prep myself for seeing him again; honestly, I don't think that my heart will ever stop speeding up at the thought of him. 
"(Y/N), what are you doing here? Is everything ok?" He asks me; he looks shocked to see me at his front door; honestly, I would too. 
"Can we talk? It is an emergency." I say, sighing. 
"Um... uh... I don't think it is... a good moment." He stutters. My eyebrows knit together at his reaction. 
But then a brunette lady appears behind him, wearing a white shirt of his. My stomach drops; I mean, he has every reason to move on with his life and date whoever he wants, but I feel my heart aching at the sight. 
"Please, I need to talk to you." I mumble, causing him to sigh. 
"It's ok, Ash... I was about to leave either way." The brunette girl says before she moves back into the house. She moves with comfort, easiness, it makes me feel even sicker. 
"Can I use your bathroom?" I ask Ashton as I gag. Ashton moves from in front of the door and I practically rush towards the bathroom.