𝟓𝐬𝐨𝐬 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐕𝐨𝐥.𝟏

'Want you back' by 5sos (Michael Clifford Fluff) (The Youngblood Series)

Summary: Michael makes it clear to (Y/N) that he wants her back. 
(Words: 1.6k) (Part 1: Woke up in Japan, Part 3: Monster Among Men, Part 4: Empty Wallets)
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The morning after one of the hardest nights I've spent this year washed over slowly. My eyes didn't shut for even a minute throughout the night, my mind refusing to abandon the image of her.

Calum is the first to knock on my door this morning, but it was long after I was ready for the day.
I open the door for him, making his eyebrows furrow in frustration as he takes in my image.
"Morning." I mumble, moving back towards my bed.
"Morning. Are you ok?" He asks me, moving next to me.
"I didn't sleep last night. I couldn't." I huff, shrugging my shoulders and rubbing my eyes as Calum pats my back.
"Why didn't you call me over? We could have gone through this together." He says.
"I needed some time alone, to get my mind together." I reply.
"Get your mind together about what?" He asks, his voice showing off his worry.
"About (Y/N). She was in my mind the whole night." I turn to look at him. His face softens at the sound of my words, taking in a deep breath.
"Must have been hard." He sighs and I nod.
"I am leaving after the show."
"Wait, what?" Calum asks starstruck.
"I'll be back before the next one, don't worry. I'll go to find her. I need to make one last effort. Even if she will shut me down, I need to let her know that it hasn't been a day since we broke up that I haven't been thinking of her. I need to shoot my shot, even if it won't work." I reply. Calum chuckles a bit, shaking his head from side to side.
"Need I remind you of the interview tomorrow?" He comments, cocking his eyebrow.
"Need I tell you I couldn't care less? You'll cover for me." I reply, looking at my best friend pleadingly.
"Go get your girl..." He sighs, standing up and rolling his eyes at me.

As soon as the flight landed, I took a taxi to her place. Through the ride, I kept replaying the speech I made in my head while on the flight. Like a cliche in a romantic movie, the rain begins just before I make it to her house. I chuckle sarcastically; maybe it is a good thing, she might pity me for standing in the rain and forgive me a little easier.
I pay for the cab and get out of it, gathering every ounce of courage inside me as I walk towards the door.

There are only two options if I knock on her door; in the first one, she forgives me and we go back to where we left off. In the second, this will be the last time that I will see her face.
I gulp the lamb in my throat and force myself to knock on her door.
One knock, two knocks, three knocks... She opens the door.
I freeze as my eyes land on her figure; she looks just as shocked as me.
"Michael..." She whispers under her breath. I smile at her, looking at the woman in front of me; she looks gorgeous, her hair and makeup are done to perfection, she is wearing the clothes that knows that compliments her body. The only thing I would change on her would be that stupid blouse with the embroidered roses, the one she wore the last time I saw her when she came over to my place to pick up her stuff and I begged her to give us another chance. Tear-eyed she told me it wouldn't work, we wouldn't work.
Funny thing is, I am here to beg her for the same thing.
"Aren't you supposed to be in Japan, or generally on tour?" She asks, her voice barely over a whisper.
"Supposedly, yeah. But I am here." I reply.
"Is this a bad time? You look like you are about to go out..." I stutter.
"I just came back home. Please, come in, it is raining." She moves from the door and lets me walk in, which takes much more courage than I expected. Nothing has changed in her house, but I feel very weird being here.
"Is everything ok?" She asks as I take my place on her couch.
"Nothing is alright. We need to talk." I reply and wait for her reaction.

She takes a seat across me and looks at her hands.
"Michael, if you are here to tell me you want to give us another chance, it's a lost cause." She mumbles, but this doesn't phase me.
"I will say what's in my mind and then you decide whatever you want. But please, hear me out." I say calmly. She motions me to start talking, making my stomach twist.
"I don't know where to start. On the flight, I've put everything in order, but now everything sounds completely and utterly insane. I guess I'll start from the obvious; I want you back. Last time you told me that we wouldn't work because I was not willing to change, I was not willing to put you on top, claim you as mine proudly. But I did. I changed. I remember every single detail about you; from the formation of your freckles on your lower back, to the jokes that maybe you giggle like a child, the way you drink your tea, the way you sit when you are trying to calm down, the little song you murmur when you are anxious. I remember all those little details about you, because I see you in my dreams every night, and that doesn't help me to move on... Not that I want to. I wake up and I turn to look at you. I wake up and I think that the past months are just a bad dream. But then I realize that you are not with me and it drives me insane. While we were in Osaka, I stayed in the hotel room we stayed on our first time there. I didn't sleep that night. Hell, I haven't slept in days. I left right after the show, to come and tell you that I want you back. And even if you shut me down one more time, I won't bother you again. But I am always going to want you back." I state. She didn't interrupt me at all throughout my speech. Only when I was done talking, she stood up and walked out of the living room.
I smile to myself; I was stupid to think that she would take me back. But at least I tried and I have closure now.

I stand up and make my way to her door; there is no reason to stay here anymore.
"You are leaving this soon?" I hear her ask. I turn to look at her, holding a blanket in her hand as she walks towards me.
"I assumed that you left because you didn't want to see me anymore." I reply, looking at everything except her.
"You said you haven't slept in days. And your clothes must be wet from the rain. And on our first date, we napped together because you were tired from recording. And I thought that the first thing we should do after getting back together should be a nap." She says. My eyes shoot up and I stare at her in relief, surprise and adoration.
"I know that you didn't expect that, but there hasn't been a day that I haven't thought of you. I want you back as well. I just wanted to see if you changed. It would be wrong to go back to a relationship in which nothing would be different. But I see that you changed and I think that this time, we should give each other a chance." She says, smiling sweetly at me.
I've never felt so intense in my life. My blood is pumping faster in my veins as I approach her to hug her.
I squeeze her close to my body, taking in her scent, her warmth, the feeling of her body against mine. She places her head in the crook of my neck, holding me to her body just as tightly.

"I've missed you." She whispers, bringing a smile to my lips.
"I promise, on the next tour break, I am taking you on the most extra date." I whisper, picking her up and moving us to the couch.
"When are you leaving?" She asks as I place her down.
"Tomorrow. I have to make it before the next show." I sigh as I lay down and she lays on top of me, pulling the blanket over our bodies.
"Maybe I can come with you. And you can take me on a date there." She suggests, smiling at me.
"Are you serious? What about your job?" I ask, my eyes going wide just at the thought of her joining me again for tour.
"I think it is time to start my own thing. I have been over that thought over and over again, and I think that it is now or never."
"You'll quit... Baby, I will be next to you until you make it. You won't have to worry about anything." I cheer for her, kissing her forehead.
"I just need some moral support. I think I got this." She smiles, leaning up to place a kiss on my lips.
"To new beginnings." I whisper before I kiss her as well.
"To doing things right this time." She smiles, placing her head softly on my chest.
I hold her close to my body through the night. Once more, I barely got some sleep.
But this time it was the greatest sleepless night of my life.