Eye of the Beholder [Completed]

Chapter 42

            "Karrington, I need to speak with Samuel alone, if you don't mind." Brittany puts one of her hands on her hip and bats her eyelashes at me. Samuel doesn't say anything. He is just sitting there like a frozen statue. What happened to the guy that had his lips on mine only moments before?

               I compose myself. "I'll just let myself out." I start walking towards the front door. I'm hoping that Samuel will tell me to stop and come back, but he doesn't. My heart falls to the ground in a million pieces.

                 I don't want to go home and face my parents. I, honestly, don't want to see anyone right now. What is going on with my life? Nothing ever seems to go right. What am I supposed to do? I just wish that I could be given all of the answers.

           Samuel turned into a completely different person when he saw Brittany. All he could focus on was her. It's like I wasn't even there. Maybe I haven't really been an important part in his life all of this time. Maybe I was just something to fill the void until Brittany came running back into his arms.

        All I know is that my feelings towards Samuel are definitely real. I care about him. I'm possibly even at the verge of falling in love with him. I can't stand having all of these feelings and emotions and not knowing what to do with them.

         I slam my hands against the steering wheel in my car. That's it. I'm going to the hospital that I worked at before helping Samuel and I am going to put in an application again. I need my work. I need something to focus on and I truly do miss my patients. Nursing is my passion. I need to set my eyes back on my future and forget about Samuel and his lies.

       I park in the parking garage of the hospital. I get in the elevator and go to the floor that I used to work on. I smile at all of my old co-workers. They wave and smile back. I go to my old bosses office and knock on his door. It's time to get my life back in order.