Ups and Downs- Diza Baby #2

Chapter fourty three-without him

April 14th 2021
3 years old
25 weeks pregnant
Lizas pov
I woke up after having barely any sleep at all. I turned over to see my baby lying next to me. I ran my fingers through his head and kissed his cheek. "I love you mason" I whispered to him not wanting to wake him up. I haven't seen David in a week and I'm really missing him even though I still want to hate him for what he did. I've seriously been struggling with looking after mace on my own, getting videos up that don't look suspicious and also dealing with being pregnant. I've had barely any sleep for the past week considering all the stress and the fact I'm pregnant on top of it. I'm supposed to have another scan today and I'll get the results to see if I have icp but I really don't think I can go without David.
I picked up my phone to see my mom calling me. "Hey" I said getting up and walking out of the room so I wouldn't wake mason. "How are you doing?" She asked me probably mostly talking about the David situation "okay, I guess. I'm getting close to no sleep but I'm fine" I replied. "Are you doing anything today?" She asked me "I have a scan but I don't think I'm going to go" i replied "no Liza, you have to. Go see your little girl it will make you happier" she said to me. "It reminds me of him though" i said tears threatening to spill out of my eyes "did you let him explain himself? My mom asked me "are you seriously taking his side?" I asked getting kinda angry. "No Liza, it's just that's so unlike him. He's so nice and it really doesn't seem like something your David would do" she said. "Well he's not my david anymore is he" I replied anger and sadness mixing together. "You need to talk to him, let him try to explain himself and then make a decision" she told me. "I think we both messed up too much to be able to do that" I replied. "Please liza, I know you love him still and I know he loves you, talk to him" she said. "Okay, love you" i replied "love you too liza" he replied. I hung up and walked back into my room to see mace still asleep, all snuggled up in the big white comforter. I took a picture of him and replaced the photo of me, him and David on my home screen with it. I listened to all of my voicemails for the hundredth time just so I could hear David's voice. They were all him saying how he's sorry and how he loves me and mace and our baby but I just can't bring myself to reply to them. I love him so so much but i can't be in a relationship with him if I can't trust him.
I got back into bed and cuddled mason. "Morning mommy" he said to me. I kissed his head "morning baby" I replied. "Dadda?" He asked me. He asks every morning and every night for David but I really just can't tell him that he might not come back any time soon. "He'll be back soon" I lied. "Today?" He asked me "um maybe" I said to him. He smiled hoping he would see David, it made my heart break.

As the day went on a little, I decided I was going to go to the scan. "Mace come out your shoes on" I called to mason as he came running to me. He sat on the stairs and I started to put on his red converse. "No shoes!" He shouted moving his feet away from me. "Mason please just put in your shoes" I begged. "No!" He shouted folding his arms. "Mason, please" I said almost giving up on today in general. He looked at my face and looked guilty "mace can you please put your shoes on for me please" I said to him. He sighed and let me put on his shoes. "Thank you mace" I said picking him up and getting in my car. I strapped him into his seat and then got in the front myself. I drove to the maternity hospital, feeling kinda lonely considering me and David usually talk about everything on the way to the maternity hospital to stop the nerves killing us, but today the nerves and anxiety was killing me. "Mommy sing?" Mason asked wanting me to turn on the Disney cd. I put it on and he sang his heart out but I wasn't really feeling it. When we arrived I took masons hand and we walked in. I told them my name and sat down whilst mason went and playing with the usual toys. "Elizabeth koshy" the nurses called. I got mason and walked into the usual room where Emma was sitting at her computer. "Hey guys" she said as we walked in. "Hi" i replied sitting down. "Oh, wheres David?" She asked me "business trip" I lied yet again. "Okay well, I have good news in that you don't have icp so far, which is amazing considering it's more likely to happen if it has happened in previous pregnancies so that's super good" she said happily. I smiled fakely as mason slid off my knee and started walking around the room talking to himself. "Okay so we will have a look at baby and then I need to take your blood pressure" she told me. I nodded and laid down on the bed lifting my shirt to show my big ass belly. "This hemp is looking amazing Liza, it's perfect size" she said. She applied the gel and moved the probe around. I pretty much instantly saw the baby which made me so happy. I can't wait for this little baby she is going to be so perfect. we also heard the satisfying thump of her heartbeat also which made me even more happy.
Emma printed some pictures off before I wiped my stomach clean of the gel and sat up ready for her to do my blood pressure. She put the thing to take my blood pressure onto my arm and took it before typing it on her computer. "Your blood pressure is a little high liza, is anything making you worried or stressed?" Emma asked. I couldn't hold it in any longer, I broke down into tears and cried into my hand. "Oh no what's up?" She asked me again. "David" I replied, crying too much to talk "what about him?" She asked handing me some tissues. I took one and dried my tears before talking. A picture was published online and it was him kissing someone else, I haven't seen him in a week and I don't even know if that article was real, I haven't had any sleep all week and I'm really struggling to look after mason on my own" I said breaking down again. "Oh liza that's awful, but we need what's best for you and baby so if you need help, ask a friend or your mom to come and help you. This stage of pregnancy is super tiring and difficult so if you need help always ask, I can prescribe a type of sedative that is safe for pregnancy to help you sleep. Try to avoid anything that will stress you out too much and if you aren't sure about David, try talking to him, I hope it all works out for you liza I really do" she said. I nodded and grabbed a few more tissues, wiping away my tears. "Thanks Emma" I said to her "any time liza, I'm here to talk if you need it or have any questions at all, you know what number to call" she said. I thanked her again and got mason before leaving. "Mommy sad?" Mason asked when we were in the car "no buddy it's okay, I'm fine" I told him. "Dadda?" He asked again. "Do you want to call him?" I asked feeling regret about what I just said. "Yeah!" He shouted getting excited. I went do David's contact which was still written as bubba, my finger hovered over the call button for a minute before I just went for it and called him. It rang twice before he picked up "Uh, hey David" I said awkwardly "hey ba- Liza" he replied I almost died at him calling me babe. "Um mace misses you and wanted to talk to you" I said to him. "Oh okay" he replied sounding kind of disappointed "DADDA!!!" Mason shouted super excited "hey mr, how's my little guy" he said to mason making me melt "I Good Dadda, I miss you" he said to his dad. "I miss you too dude" David replied "when Dadda back?" Mason asked "I'm not sure when I'll be back buddy" he said "yeah Dadda is really busy with work" I said feeling guilty for saying that "yeah that's what's going on mace" David said just going along with it "Okay Dadda, love you" mason said being so cute "love you too mace, I love you and your mommy and your baby sister" he said. I teared up a little when he said that but I forced the tears away "Okay mace, I love you and I'll talk to you soon, bye bud" he said "bye Dadda" mason said. I turned my phone off speaker phone and put it to my ear. "Look David I think we need to talk" I said to David "is something wrong, are you and the baby okay?" He asked. "Yeah we're okay I guess but we need to sort this out. We need to be adults in this situation and avoiding each other isn't really the way to go about it" I said to him. "Okay, how about tomorrow?" He asked "yeah just come over and we will sort it, I do love you David, so freaking much but at the minute I can't trust you and that's what this relationship needs" I said to him. "I love you too liza, I promise I'm going to show you that you can trust me, anyways, I'll see you tomorrow bye" he said "bye" I said quietly hanging up. "You're gonna see Dadda tomorrow" I told mason I saw his little face light up in the mirror before I begun to drive.
When we got home, me and mason both changed into our pyjamas even though it was only 3 pm, I made mac n cheese for dinner and we watched movies all night, which has been the usual for the past week. I've been letting mace stay up later than usual just so he will sleep longer so at 10pm we went to bed. I've also been letting him sleep in my bed so that I can cuddle him and he is just so freaking cute. Mason was lying next to me in mine and David's big bed completely passed out and I just lay staring up at the ceiling thinking about how nervous I am for tomorrow. I eventually did fall asleep, hoping tomorrow I can get my fiancé back.

A/n
I was going to have them not see each other for like a month but I actually can't do that because it would break my heart so here you go 😂
-Emily