Hidden: Strings of Fate

CHAPTER 58

"What is WRONG with you!?" I shrieked as tears fell from my eyes.

He stood there in silence. Tears fell from his eyes. My heart began to break. I never want to do this. I never wanted to hurt him. Not him. Anyone but him. Jun Gi, why did you do this?! You idiot...! Why did you ruin everything? Why did you look for me? You should have given up.

He grabbed his shirt and yanked it on while fleeing out of the room. In the distance, a door slam shut. I slumped down on the floor and started to bawl my eyes. My head was in my hands when I heard someone come in.

"Honey, is everything ok?" Min questioned as she cautiously entered my room. "Honey! What happened?!! Why are you on the floor?" She interrogated as she helped me sit on my bed. She took my hands in hers. "What happened?!! Why are the two of you crying?"

"Min..." I cried as I hugged her. I sobbed on her shoulder, soaking her shirt in my tears.

"Honey, what happened?"

"He... He... He k... k... k... kissed me." I stuttered, as tears still fell from my eyes.

"What...? He... he... kissed you(!)" Min said in excitement. Her eyes made her look like a deer caught in headlights.

"Yeah. He's so stupid. Why did he come here? Why did he do that?" I said sniffling, looking at the door, with guilt.

"Aww Honey... Honey... Honey. You really are blind. You really don't see it. He was right."

"What are you talking about? Who was right?" Right now, I was really confused and had no idea what Min was talking about.

"Jun Gi... Honey... Jun Gi was right." She sighed deeply. And leaned forwards onto her elbows. "He said that he could peel back every part of his skin and expose his heart for you and you still wouldn't acknowledge his feelings. You still wouldn't know how he felt about you..."

"His FEELINGS... what about his FEELINGS?"

"Oh for the love of... If you forgot about the past and his mistake you'd see what everyone else can blatantly see! He's done it for goodness knows how many years. As long as I can remember! Can you imagine how much his heart broke when you started dating his brother?"

"Min, what are you talking about? You're lying! His heart wouldn't have hurt." I took her shoulders and shook her.

She pushed me off her. "Oh yeah? How would you have known? You ignored us when ever Jun Seo was in the room. Plus what reason could I possibly have for lying? What am I going to gain for the two of you loving each other?"

"What?! You said the two of you. I don't love him."

"You don't love him? You say that you don't LOVE him? Honey, I can see it in your eyes. Everytime you LOOK at him. Everytime you TALK about him. Everytime you see him with another girl other than you. Is this a joke to you? You've both done stupid things in the past and you BOTH hurt each other emotionally. So if you don't want me to hurt the both of you physically, I suggest you stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop making up excuses, forget about the past and run after Jun Gi!" She threatened.

"But...!"

"Enough!" She said with gritted teeth and fist balled.

"But why now? Why did he choose now to confess? After all these years...?"

"That's something you're going to have to ask him." I looked at her.

"Go! Now!" She pointed towards the door. I stood in shock. All these years... all these years and he never said a word. I hope it's not too late. What was he thinking? The idiot.

"Where is he?"

"He muttered something about it was a mistake coming here and that he's going to return to England as soon as possible."

"What?!! He's going to leave?" I got up and I ran. Ran out of my bedroom. Ran through the living room, leaving VIXX wondering what on earth was going on. Through the corridor and out to the lift, just in the nick of time to catch him getting into the lift.

The doors closed. We stood there in silence. We faced the front. I took discreet glances at him. I turned to face him. He didn't look at me. I grabbed his forearm and turned him to face me. He tried to yank his arm out of my hand but I maintained a firm grip on it. Our eyes connected. My hazel eyes to his amber ones... They were mesmerising. He turned his back to me.

"Jun Gi, look at me." He said nothing. Just stood there in silence.

I slammed the emergency stop button. "Jun Gi, look at me," I repeated. He still said nothing, sulking with his head down, fiddling with the ring on his finger. I remember the ring. I remember the face he made when he first saw it. I still wear mine. It's just hidden.

"Kim. Jun. Gi. Look. At Me." He flinched at my sudden change in tone. He turned around after a few seconds. Still with his head down. I lifted his head up and pulled him into an embrace. My tears threatened to fall again. I had to hold them, just long enough to hear it. His confession.

"How long are you going to keep on running?" I mumbled into his neck. He kept mum. I looked at him, my hands still wrapped around his neck.

"I don't want to run anymore, Honey." Tears began to fall from his eyes."I'm tired, Honey. I'm tired of fight them. I'm tired of denying them. I don't want to do this anymore," he bawled. "It hurts. It hurts every time I see you. Every time I hear your name. Do you know how lost and afraid I was after I had you left England? Left me?!"

I bit my lower lip trying to stop my tears from falling and looked at his face. Softly smiling, I wiped his tears and held his cheeks in my hands. He wrapped his hands around mine and kissed my palms.

'I'm making the right choice. I can't do this anymore. I had stop pretending to be ok. I can't do this anymore. To be acting happy when I'm not. I want to feel real emotions again. I don't want to live in this fantasy anymore and put on a charade...'

"Then don't... Don't do it anymore. Don't let me leave you again. Stop me, Jun. Stop running away. Stop denying them."

"I-I-I wish I could. I'm a coward. I could never tell you with my own mouth that I-I-I..." he started to tear up again.

"Shhh... Jun..." I held him in my arms.

"I-I-I'm... afraid, Honey. Afraid of hurting you and messing up. You're worth too much to me. I don't think I could live with myself if anything happened to you because of me. That's why I decided that I could never tell you the truth about my feelings... I would rather have you as a life long friend than hurt... you... I'm scared I'll hurt you and scar you... like him and this time you won't be able to run away or hide." He said all this while maintaining eye contact. He was telling the truth.

"Jun Gi. You used to be my best friend. If you don't tell me the truth, then who will?"

"Honey... it's not easy..."

"Jun Gi... you're not him. You're NOT Kim Jun Seo," I said with determination.