Hidden: Strings of Fate

CHAPTER 67

Unknown's P.O.V

We started walking to the practice room. These last images of her leaving kept playing over in my head. I can't get them to leave. I shouldn't have let her leave like a coward. I can't understand... I don't understand this feeling. Why do I feel peaceful yet so frightened at the same time when I see her? Is it just me who feels like this? What is this feeling?

And now that I know she's gone, I feel like there's a pain in my chest. It just hurts. I feel regretful, like I should have done something to stop her and keep her here. I should have stopped him from taking her away like this.

It all started in that moment. When I saw her... at first she looked like someone I had met a long time ago so I went closer. To be honest, I thought she was a guy the first time I saw her. I still remember it. It's still fresh in my memories. I was jogging back to the dorm after practice. We had just finished for the day. The other trainees went to the dorm before me. I decided to go for a run spontaneously. I needed to clear my head. There was a lot going on for me. One of the trainees that I had hoped to debut with had lost his chance to debut. I had broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years. My family were supportive of my decision to be a K-Pop idol but I wished I could be a good son to my parents. I just didn't know how. I felt like I was in a slump.

Running past my usual coffee shop on my run, someone caught my attention. Their eyes captured me the most. They didn't look lifeless. They were full of joy and childish. They were captivating. I moved closer to the window. It was a boy. He looked younger than me. He was sat with Min. He was dressed in a top and jeans with matching high tops. It suited his frame. I shouldn't be attracted to him but... I was. To me, he looked like he should be a model. He had studs in his ears and his hair was a pixie cut that was jet black. I saw him lightly punch Min on the shoulder whilst laughing. Min began to laugh. Who was he? And why did he make me feel like this? The boy glanced toward the window for a moment. We locked eyes. I felt all strength leave my legs. I hadn't seen those eyes for a long time. They reminded me of a child I met when I was younger.

He adjusted himself in his seat and said something to Min. Min looked over at me, smiled and waved enthusiastically. I waved back and smiled. He had a confused look on her face. Min signalled for me to join them. I declined and signalled that I was going back home and that it was already late. I waved good bye to them both. And continued on my journey home.

After that night, I kept seeing him in my dreams. He eventually started to haunt me. I wasn't able to think straight. I kept seeing him. Those eyes... they were so... so.... Mesmerising. It was wrong of me to have feeling like this for someone I had just seen in passing. I didn't even know anything about him! Why was a guy making my heart flutter like this?

So, I had to do what I did best. I had become an expert at suppressing parts of me for others. I didn't want to be seen as weak and helpless. I hid it in a deep part of me and ignore this strange, uncontrollable desire that I was feeling. I eventually debuted in a group called VIXX. It worked for a while.

Then he turned up as my manager. That was when I found out the guy who had constantly been haunting me was actually a girl. I slowly started to pay attention to her. I began notice things. The way her eyeliner was always picture perfect. The way when she did a deep sigh, her bangs flutter in the wind of her breath. The way she bit her lips when she was concentrating on something. I tried my best to ignore her. I thought that maybe, just maybe if I ignore her for long enough, the feelings would go away. But the longer I tried to avoid them... the harder I fell. I don't how to act around her. She makes me nervous. She makes me anxious. I'm scared. I'm scared that I'll end up hurting her if I tell her the truth. I can't lose her. I don't want to lose her.

And now... it's too late. Someone came and took her from me. From us. I don't know when I'll see her again. I mean, she found the one that she was looking for all these days. This is why I prefer not to feel. This is why I keep everything to myself and I put on a face. To keep everyone happy. To fool everyone... including myself. I thought if I could fool everyone, it would be as though they never existed. That I never begun to feel that way about her to begin with.

It's ridiculous! How could I have fallen for someone that I don't even know that much about? Am I stupid? Am I that naive? Have I really become that self centred that I think that she'll fall head over heels for me if I just confess to her? What good would my confession do anyway? She already has a boyfriend... a fiancé. What good would it do? I can't be having these feeling for someone who's getting married in a few months!!

Stop! You foolish heart. Stop, feeling like this for someone who's heart has already been taken by another.

Will I ever have the chance to see her again? To be blessed by her presence again? I hope... with every fibre of my body, I hope that I just get that one chance to see her again and when I do... I'm never letting her go again.