She's A Trouble Maker

Chapter twenty-two

-Dustin West-

I sat on Ryder's bed as he threw things at his bedroom wall, shattering most things.

"Dude! It's been 3 weeks. All you've done is broken things, punched walls and drink all day long! Not to mention, it seems like you haven't showered in weeks." I say as my eyes try to follow his every move.

"You don't understand what it feels like to have your heart ripped out of your chest, thrown on the floor and then it being stamped on a dozen times. I freaking love that girl and it some how feels like I ruined everything."

"Why don't you go and speak to her, she's probably over the argument by now."

Harley West:

I can not believe that he would do such thing. I trusted him, I gave him what my ex couldn't get and he thought he would just ignore me until god knows when! Seriously!!

"Harley, chill out. He was doing it to protect you."  Molly tried to reassure me but it didn't work out....just like the other couple times.

"I don't need freaking protection, Molly! I'm more than capable enough defending and protecting myself!" To say I was furious would be an understatement, Ryder's probably out with a bunch of girls and having the time of his life.

These last 3 three weeks were spent by me avoiding him and he avoiding me. It's been painful, it really has but I don't think I can forgive him so soon.

My mind goes back to three weeks ago, repeating the last words Ryder said to me. "Please...don't leave me...I-I love you."

He wasn't going to say those bittersweet three words, I could tell by the way he hesitated. In a way I'm furious he said those words especially when he was planning to not speak to me but I'm also confused.

When he said those words a strange feeling cane to my stomach... something I hadn't felt in a long time. For the first time since James, I didn't feel sick to my stomach when he said those words instead, I felt butterflies. It give me a tingling feeling in my stomach, just think about it now is giving me that sensation again but I had to remind my self of what he'd done.

I still hadn't spoken to my mom since Ryder told me it was her idea and I still hadn't told Molly that Ryder told me he loved me. My mom had tried a couple times to speak to me but I refused to speak to her. Dustin has come into my room to give me my dinner since I hadn't left my room when I came back from school. Tom had been coming to check up on me everyday as well, and my dad has been trying to convince me to talk to Ryder.

Molly and I sat in silence for a minute until we heard smashing and shouting from next door. Molly and I look at each other, obviously worried, I run to my window and notice Ryder throwing everything against his wall and punching it several times as Dustin tried to calm him down. And then I saw something which broke my heart into several pieces, tears were streaming down his face uncontrollably as his fist dove into the wall, splattering blood everywhere.

I tried, I really really tried but I couldn't help crying as I saw Ryder crying. I felt a lump form in my throat and that where I couldn't handle it anymore. I ran to his house, knocking on the door. His mother answered the door and pulled me into a hug.

I remembered about what Ryder told me. She's acting. She's a horrible person as well as her husband. I gently pushed her away and ran up to Ryder's room.

Once I open his bedroom door, I see him collapsed on the floor. His knees were pressed against his chest and his bloodied hands were on his face as he cried hysterically.

Dustin looks at me and gives me a short smile before leaving the room. Ryder still hadn't seen me.

"I love her so much, Dustin. I hurt her, badly. I broke her trust and that broke me." His breath stink of alcohol. I looked around his room and noticed how it looked. There was glass smashed everywhere, every type of alcohol bottles you could think of were spread across the floor. "I never meant to fall in love with her. It just happened but I don't regret it a single bit."

"Ryder..." I manage to croak out, as I cup his hands. He looks up at me, his eyes were bright red as they filled up with tears. "Lets get you cleaned up." I pull him off the floor, gently, and take him to his bathroom.

I clean the blood on his fists as he looks at my every move. I didn't realise how much I missed him until I saw him.

"I thought you were avoiding me." He whispers, looking down as I disinfect his wounds.

"I am. The only reason I'm here is because I couldn't handle seeing you hurting yourself that way, just because I'm avoiding you it doesn't mean I want you to be in pain." I don't look at him, I'm scared that if I do, I'd be reminded of the smile he used to have on his face whenever he'd see me.

"You hate me, don't you?" He took a deep breath before he spoke.

"No...I'm just disappointed" I feel a lump forming in my throat again.

"You know that's so much worse, Harley."

"Please don't." I say holding back the tears. Ryder looks at me with a confused face. "Don't make me feel bad for wanting some time away from you. Don't make me feel bad when you're the one that hurt me."

"You're right. You need some time so I-I'm going to go away for a while, I'm going to go with an old friend of mine. I hope that when I return, you'll be able to forgive me." As much as I didn't want him to go, I had to agree with him. Seeing him everyday is just too painful, I need some time away from him.

"When are you leaving?" I ask with a concerned expression on my face.

"I'm thinking of going tomorrow." I nod as he answers me.

I didn't want him to go. I really didn't.