My sexual assault story

The beginning

So this is a true story i am only telling for what i remember and anything else i feel is important to talk about so anyway please no joking and commenting mean stuff it can trigger stuff hope you injoy or are enlighten by my book (also sorry this is so long i talk about alot of stuff and would love if you read all of it thank you)
     I don't remember exactly when it started. Honestly i don't care. But I'm gonna say i was about 9 or 8 when it started. The first time is the one i remember most because that was the closest to getting raped. So let me start from the beginning.
  It was just like every other time he came to visit. I think everytime he came to visit he would stay at my house maybe because it had the most room. Anyway it was late at night and it was past our bed time. Now kyle he is my cousin and he is two years older than me(also not real name). So it was late at night i had the top bunk of a bed at the time so i had space under my bed that i had a little reading nook. Kyle would sleep there and me on my bed. So me and him were hanging out in the nook watching Bob's burgers. When he started to touch me. At first i started to move away and hope he got the hint. He didn't. He continued and i don't exactly remember how but we got to my bed. He pulled my pants and underwear down. He continued to touch me. When it started to get further i stopped him. He left my room and hung out with my sister the rest of the time of him being there.
After that every time he would come for a few days he would hang out with me and then touch me trying to rape me again. I never let it get far i always covered my self on blankets cuddled as close as possible to my body pillow and curl in the smallest ball i could be. After awhile he would give up and leave.