My sexual assault story

So tired...

  Hey i know its been a little bit since i last did this. But Hello. I am here to complain more about my life.
    Ok so in the last month or two i have started to have nightmares every night. I hardly sleep but i take naps during the day but only ever once in a while because i get in trouble if i do. My mom is so angry at me for it and blaming my phone. I want to tell her its nightmares but i know she really doesn't care i try and tell her that I'm not fine and she finds some way to make it sound like I'm just fine. Like if i have a panic attack its because I'm on my period. I can't tell her anything anymore and it sucks because the person i could tell anything to i don't want her to know nothing.
  I'm just so tired. I'm tired of barley being able to do anything without freaking out. Im tired of never being able to leave the house. I'm tired of the nightmares. I'm just tired of it all and i want it to end but i don't know what to do. I can't get help other than my friends but they can't do anything. I'm tired and i want everything to stop but i don't want to hurt myself or anything. But right now i feel like that is the only solution.
  (This sounds like a cliche fanfic sorry)