I'm alive somehow.
I have a rant to go on. Its about my parents.
Ok so i have told my mom multiple times that i want to go to therapy for help. But she always says no even though she has seen me have panic attacks and i have told her what happened and stuff. But i never fully went into detail about what happened. Well i did one time when i talked about how i told her about almost getting raped. But the first time i really told her was many months back.
I had just gotten back from hanging out with my grandma, sister, and my dad. Everyone was talking and stuff but i was almost in tears. My mom noticed and me and her went to my room to talk. I told her that i couldn't get it out of my head and that the family that had been staying with us was just making it worse. She told me she understood how i felt because her drink got spiked. Still even now i don't feel like that's similar to what happened to me. Anyways i felt better after talking to her and she even promised to let me get help. But after that family left she completely did a 180 and now refuses therapy or that I'm not ok.
I don't know what to do. I have looked at symptoms of PTSD and i relate to almost every symptom but i don't wanna self diagnose. I feel like going to therapy or something well tell me what's wrong and i might be able to fix it. I'm so tired of having to deal with all the stuff i do. I'm do exhausted at this point and I'm almost close to just giving up.
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My sexual assault story
No FicciónThis started out as my story about my sa and like recovering but its slowly becoming me just talking about other things that have happened that I can't really talk to with anyone It's not happy stuff so if you still need something sad it's still th...
