So fun fact about me i used to be scared of the dark. I had a night-light for years and it probably wasn't till about a year or two ago that i stopped using one. Now with everything being the way it is. I'm scared of the dark again.
Kyle would always turn off or hide my night-light. So the dark reminds me of him and if I don't have light i get scared that he is gonna come back and that life till now was just my imagination or a dream.
During the dark i can get nightmares or think i see him again. The seeing him thing hasn't happened many times maybe once or twice till recently. The nightmares have been about every other night and after i end up staying up all night. I have started to just stay up till sun rise because I'm scared to get a nightmare.
I'm Lucky though cause last Christmas my parents got me fairy lights and one of my cousins gave me some light words. I mostly forget about them. Normally what happened when either of those happen i just play on my phone and/or text my friends. My friends are night owls.
But on a little bit of a positive note i don't remember saying this but sometime soon i should start therapy/counciling. I'm excited but scared.
I also told my grandma about my nightmares and she said its a symptom of PTSD. I looked more into it and i found i have alot of the symptoms but i don't wanna say i have PTSD because I'm not huge on self diagnosing.
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