My sexual assault story

5/8/19

  Today has been a bad day. First i woke up at 5 am because i got a nightmare. (My heart rate was at 111.) Then school and just that was as bad as it normally was. But today i was staying later at school with my two best friends. There was a movie thing from 4-6 and we were going. We hung out at the college across form our school, and stayed with my sister and her friends. We left and went to the movie. It started out fine but after maybe an hour in the gym. I started to shake and feel so close to throwing up. So me and my (girl) best friend went to the bathroom. I checked my heart rate and it was 129 (it's the picture at the top) that was the highest it got today. I tried to stay to the end but my step dad asked if he should come get me now and i said because it was getting to much. Not to long after i had to of outside to calm down. My friends came with. I was pacing, shaking my hands, tapping my foot (while standing), and scratching my hand to try and calm down. My step dad got me and i told him about my anxiety. He thought at first it was from lack of eating but it wasn't. Then he said to just calm down or i might have to take anti anxiety stuff. I said i wouldn't mind having some. He replied with we can talk to your doctor. So i don't know what will happen. But I'm happy my step dad is ok with talking to my doctor about things like this to help me. He actually wants me to be ok unlike my mom assuming I'm ok.