Don't Fall In Love (JENLISA, G!P - COMPLETED)

Chapter 13

Jennie Kim.

"Please don't make me fall in love with you if you never planned to catch my fall" I whispered

"Please don't use this love jokes to stop me touching you! I hate it.." She said sounded annoyed

"I thought I make myself clear when I said no physical touch on our deal if you didn't want a divorce" I said firmly. I was annoyed too, she always think everything I said just a silly jokes

"Are you threatening me?" She asked narrowed eyes

"I'm not...."

She scratched the back of her neck in frustration "You are Jennie! We are married, you are my wife, I want you, what's wrong with that? And I don't want to argue with you about the divorce which you're never getting"

Yeah. Maybe she is right, she was just asking for sex, nothing wrong with that because we are married and we had done it so many time before,  but it's just since I realized my feeling, I was unsure about whether it was wrong to have sex with someone who doesn't love you back because I'm not strong enough to handle my feeling towards her when Lisa are simply telling me the truth that she cannot love anyone and being silently rejected by her just break down my self-confidence day by day, I feel weak, that was the reason I need to avoiding her before too late. I would just end up hurting myself.

"I just can't.." I said in low voice

"Why Jennie?? You are not like this before! You're acting weird, what's wrong with you?" She asked frustratingly

"I'm sorry..."

"I asked you a question for an answer not a sorry" She said as stared at me with such a cold gaze that I was afraid

"Please stop asking me about that.." I pleading her. It's hard to answer the question what's wrong when nothing right.

"I want to know the real reason Nini... Did I do something wrong to you? Please tell me.." She said soften, asked me with curiosity

"I think I broke t-the rules..."

"Uh? What do you mean?"

"Our marriage agreement.." I said again, I was nervous, I stuttered in the attempt wanted to explain everything about my feeling, I want to tell her at least hoping that she would understand why I avoiding to have sex with her

"What??? You've got to be kidding me" She said in disbelief

"I wasn't kidding this time. I'm.. I'm falling in love with you, Lisa.."  I finally says it. My heart feel like stopped beating at the moment

"I thought you were done with your jok..."

"No that's not a jokes..." I interrupted her

Lisa eyes widened, still processing with what I just saying. I closed my eyes and realized my tears was already fell slowly down to my cheeks. I needed to control them so I opened and blinked my eyes to stop them for falling more while take a deep breath I lifted my head slowly to look at her, but Lisa immediately looked away averting my eyes then moving her body away from me.

"Lisa..."

"Aren't we agree not to fall in love?" She said seriously

"Yes.. We are..."

"And you shouldn't be.." She said with a deep voice as sitting on the edge of the bed with her back on me

"I couldn't help, I didn't want to.." I paused. I can't say a words, I was in a pure nervousness. My mouth feel like don't have any strength to speak anymore