My Amnesia Band: Two Worlds Season II

4: Impossible

KAI POV

So eto na nga, dumiretso agad kami nila Spence at DK sa ospital para i-check ang kalagayan ni Roger.

"When will he wake up?" tanong ni utol kay Dra. Farrah - Roger's personal doctor and Ginger's aunt. His face was dark as ash and I can see guilt in his eyes. Or was it just my imagination?

"Only God knows," she answered in a flat voice.

Spencer gazed at him intently and I couldn't read what was on his mind. DK stood beside him at ako naman sa likod nilang dalawa.

I clenched my fist. I know Spence more than I know myself. Malalim ang trauma na naidulot sa kanya ng pagkamatay ni tita Netty at hindi ko gustong isipin pa kung anong maaaring mangyari kung mawala pati si Roger.

This was all because of my ignorance. Kung alam ko lang ang tungkol sa totoong kundisyon niya, di sana nagtimpi na lang ako nung gabing iyon. Kahit gaano ko pa siya kinamumuhian, Roger was still my old man. And Spencer's father.

Pasimple akong lumabas ng kuwarto. Hindi na kasi ako makahinga. Muling nagvibrate ang phone na nasa bulsa ng pantalon ko pero hindi ko yun pinansin. Isa lang naman ang kanina pa tawag ng tawag at ayoko muna siyang makausap.

Nagulat na lang ako nang may tumapik sa balikat ko mula sa likuran. It was DK.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

I sighed, "I don't know man.."

"It's no one's fault," sabi niya na para bang nababasa kung anong nasa isip ko.

"You think Spencer's okay?" I asked.

Siya naman ang napabuntung-hininga, "Dont worry. He will be."

I nodded trying to reassure myself. I have to believe he will be okay. Kahit gaano pa kagago si utol, alam ko na kaya niyang dalhin ang sitwasyon. Siya yung tipo na hindi madaling sumuko at hindi magpapatalo sa mga ganitong klase ng pagsubok. Wala akong dapat ipag-alala.

Sumandal ako sa pader at pumikit para pakalmahin ang isipan ko. Napamulat ako nang maalala ang mga sinabi ni DK while we were on our way here from the airport.

"Uhm, hey man. About that thing you said, I'm actually trying to consider it."

His face lightened up. "Cool! But no pressure, okay? No pressure. Spence told me you're going to the US on September. So that's like what - two months from now?"

Tumango lang ako.

Then he continued, "You don't have to commit if you can't. I mean, I wouldn't want that either. And I know you got your hands full right now, so yeah. No pressure man. I'm cool."

I furrowed my eyebrows and brooded over his words. Sa totoo lang, I don't even know what I want right now. Nakakapanghinayang lang kasi. Sunburst Records was helping DK launch his own music project this year. They're gonna help him with the finances, marketing, booking gigs, and all those stuff. Basically, he was looking for bandmates and wanted me to try it out.

"I just wish it's that easy to do the things that we really wanted to do," I said thinking out loud.

"It ain't easy," he said with a serious deep voice, "but doesn't mean it ain't doable."

Mas lalo akong napaisip. Posible ba talaga? I smirked at the thought of it. No, it's too impossible. Naguguluhan na ako!

While I was contemplating, the door to Roger's room re-opened.